thanks u are so right,and very touching. thanks for taking the time to listen. i want to tell him but im afraid to. i dont know how he will react to me telling him that i still love him and want to work this out. i dont want to tell him and he throw it back in my face. hes been saying bad things about me on the internet and also sending me very mean messages telling me how much he hates me, how he wishes i would die. i know i deserve better, but im willing to forgive him, like God said u have to forgive so he can forgive you. when i go on his -banned site- i see how he is telling everyone hows he is lonely and wishes he had someone to love are a family, i ask myself why does he do that when he already has a family, why look for something when you already have it in front of you. i know i shouldnt be looking at his page, but i do it in hopes that oneday he would as me to come back. i feel is pain of loneliness, but he dont realize that he dont have to be, he got a girlfriend who loves him as well as a 2yr old and 5 month old son. it breaks my heart when my son says daddy all the time when he is not around. i have full cusody of my children, and he is only allowed weekend visits. i just hope in pray that guy will answer my cry for help until then i will keep on prasing his name everyday. I just want my family back........................
