Methwaynn
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for me. Pray to our Lord Jesus, or to our Heavenly Father in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Pray that I be rescued from my afflictions. Believers around me keep telling me to keep hearing the word through sermons, and to keep reading. I spend all my time hearing and reading, and meditating on the word, and even preaching to myself. I received a vision that I would speak on stage at the church that I am attending. But I feel so unhappy. I don't really like my job, but I don't want God to take away my job too. I am ### years old, turning ###, and I am too scared to take on a higher paying job. I want to get married someday, but I know marriage is not everything. I thank the Lord Jesus for everything, and I am doing His will. I obey whatever I've been taught. I pour out my heart to the Lord Jesus, but it seems that I am so lacking in love and wisdom. I let out all of my anger to Him. I used to dabble in New Age, and I've tried Buddhism and Taoism for healing. Actually, I've been a born-again Christian for ### years, I believe, because I called on the name of the Lord Jesus in ###. I pray everyday, because I feel so anxious everyday. I am also on a ###mg medication for psychosis, because I went to a mental institute before. I did a lot of crap even as a Christian... I didn't go to church, I didn't pray (I didn't know how to pray). I prayed to gods (like the Chinese and Buddhist gods. Buddhas, bodhissatvas). God showed up in ### when I was alone in ### at the start of COVID-19, and He told me that He was already inside me. And I even told Him that are You the Indian God or the Muslim God or the Christian God? And then when I came back to ### (which was not easy too for me), God showed me that He was the God behind the cross of the Lord Jesus Christ. And then shortly after, I went to a church that my ### attends, and the believers who prayed for me received words of knowledge about the gods I used to worship. God even told them about this meditation master that I used to follow. I followed the meditation techniques that he taught. And in ###, something went into me (back track to ###) when I was doing meditation that I invented on my own. And then later on, in church (and in another church), God told the believers and pastor who were praying for me that the thing that is inside me is called Kundalini or Pythona. Honestly, I still manifest, and things come out of me whenever I do the will God. At the healing sessions, God told the ministers that the spirits that I had were spirits of depression, anxiety etc. I know... because I would feign depression and anxiety because I envy people with depression and anxiety, that they could rest... Pray for me. I would like to get married (but I also know that marriage is not everything...)