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Jude42
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I have sent prayer request before for my salvation and deliverance from
Homosexuality to the point that Im sure I sound like a broken record. I thought I was saved four years ago ( I'm not sure) Â but I would fall
Back into that abominable sin ( I thought that I was back sliding but I think I just became religious and never truly repented). My family is 'Christian' and I grew up in the church for sometime then was out in the world and came back when I thought I was saved ( I'm really not to sure if I ever was) and became very active in my church overtime (joining ministry, cleaning the church, etc.) but the Lord pointed out to me how things really were with that church (I left) and my family (something else I need help with since my immediate family is part of ministry at that church and I'm related to nearly the entire core leadership ). I was hanging out with the wrong crowd and I had brought an unclean spirit into a brothers house he had rebuked me (rightfully so!) and pointed out things to me about my 'Christian' life that when I examined saw wasn't really Christian ( I.E. My continous falling back into that horrible sin of homosexuality). I began to wonder if I was truly saved or if o had deceived myself. I prayed and sent out prayer request to alot of Christian church sites and I was convicted three times by the Holy Spirit ( one time I was at my new job and I didn't respond the second time in the
Middle of the night when I can't believe I said no and yesterday night in bed i felt conviction and didn't respond... This pride/apathy swelled up in me)  I've been talking to a few brothers at my new church and they've been a blessing one was praying for me and the Lord pointed it out to him that I had pride. I have fallen into sin my heart feels hard and my neck stiff. If you only know how many prayer request, altar calls, and "one, two, three, believe after me" sinner prayers I've prayed. I know the Lord has been dealing with me and I have been lazy, stubborn, and foolish. I know that I'm alive only by his mercy. I need help and I need to be saved because I don't want to get left behind or go to hell because the sign of the times are bleak.Thank you and  God bless you.
Homosexuality to the point that Im sure I sound like a broken record. I thought I was saved four years ago ( I'm not sure) Â but I would fall
Back into that abominable sin ( I thought that I was back sliding but I think I just became religious and never truly repented). My family is 'Christian' and I grew up in the church for sometime then was out in the world and came back when I thought I was saved ( I'm really not to sure if I ever was) and became very active in my church overtime (joining ministry, cleaning the church, etc.) but the Lord pointed out to me how things really were with that church (I left) and my family (something else I need help with since my immediate family is part of ministry at that church and I'm related to nearly the entire core leadership ). I was hanging out with the wrong crowd and I had brought an unclean spirit into a brothers house he had rebuked me (rightfully so!) and pointed out things to me about my 'Christian' life that when I examined saw wasn't really Christian ( I.E. My continous falling back into that horrible sin of homosexuality). I began to wonder if I was truly saved or if o had deceived myself. I prayed and sent out prayer request to alot of Christian church sites and I was convicted three times by the Holy Spirit ( one time I was at my new job and I didn't respond the second time in the
Middle of the night when I can't believe I said no and yesterday night in bed i felt conviction and didn't respond... This pride/apathy swelled up in me)  I've been talking to a few brothers at my new church and they've been a blessing one was praying for me and the Lord pointed it out to him that I had pride. I have fallen into sin my heart feels hard and my neck stiff. If you only know how many prayer request, altar calls, and "one, two, three, believe after me" sinner prayers I've prayed. I know the Lord has been dealing with me and I have been lazy, stubborn, and foolish. I know that I'm alive only by his mercy. I need help and I need to be saved because I don't want to get left behind or go to hell because the sign of the times are bleak.Thank you and  God bless you.
