Terry, I just want you to know that you are not alone. God is carrying you in the palm of His hand! I have to constantly remind myself of this in my seemingly never ending days of depression, when I long for my Heavenly home. I KNOW the pain gets unbearable, I'm there now, but we are still breathing for a reason. God has a plan, but Satan has a plan too. Satan wants to keep us in bondage and pain so that we feel useless and hopeless. Don't give up, whatever it takes! Hold on to God's promises, for He always proves Himself faithful to His children. Not in our time, but in His time. That's the difficult part and that's what leads us to sometimes question why God would allow us to experience so much pain and despair. "WHY? WHY? WHY? What have I done to deserve this? Why doesn't He just take it away?" I don't have the answers. But I do know that I understand what you are going through and what you shared also reminds me that I am not alone. I will pray for you every time I can find the strength and energy to pray. Sometimes uttering one word takes every ounce of energy I have. You are not alone Terry! You are loved! You are God's child and He does not abandon His children! Try your best to separate what you "feel" from the "truth". I'm telling myself this as I type. The truth shall set us free! Sending you a huge hug!
