Anonymous
Beloved of All
A most sincere THANK YOU! to everybody who prayed for us. I had requested prayers for our family, which has been struck with serious health issues in my life last December that have caused extreme misery to everybody, particularly our son. He had prayed and asked God to bless my health and my relationship to God for 1 to 2 years prior, and I ended up with metastatic melanoma that led to brain surgery, immunotherapy that caused ketoacidosis, which in turn destroyed the beta cells in my pancreas making me an insulin-dependent effective type-1 diabetic, which took a huge toll emotionally. His previously excellent schoolwork has suffered to the point where he is in serious danger of failing classes. I don't think there was a closer father/son relationship on the planet. We did everything together, even though he's a young man now. This is breaking my heart. I love him dearly. What really upsets me the most is that he prayed for so long for me -- prayers that fulfil the commandment, "Thou shalt honor thy father and mother." This is a VERY GOOD prayer. Why would the opposite happen? Our small family was forged and founded upon God. My wife was an answer to fervent prayer. I had to go about 7000 miles to find her. Our wedding was 100% centered on God.
God has gifted me with amazing things and I want to continue to use these gifts to give away to others, not waste them. I feel they are being wasted. He has given me a passion for what I do, and I would dig into things all the time to go above and beyond what was required, whether at work or on my own time. I have developed things that I don't find in books and wanted to share them freely with others. I had plans to start a YouTube channel in retirement that would specialize in technology and music, and had many topics lined up. I planned to go back into adjunct teaching at a local college part-time as well as spend more time in music with my son -- playing, rehearsing, recording, and writing. God has gifted me musically, and my son even more. He's got amazing gifts, and it is so painful to see this once joyful, talented boy become what he's become. All of that is due to what has happened to me in December. Because of the damage that has been done -- my son's grades/education, his emotional state, the waste of time that has seriously affected my employer due to my 5-month absence dealing with this utter evil, the waste of time going to doctors, the physical toll on my body including my eyesight, cranium, and pancreas, the emotional toll on all three of us, and many more evils -- I have asked God to roll time back and prevent all of this evil. I know it's an outrageous prayer, but I don't know of anything else that would make my son's emotional state and its university situation RIGHT. That's what hurts me the most. What's happening to him is 100% unrighteous. I know people who are men and say they are women, people who cohabitate and are not married, and many other things that are abominations to God, and they are fine. My son sees that kind of thing and even worse at his university. He went there to LEARN, not to live a debauched life like many of his schoolmates do. Why can't he be free to learn like his schoolmates who don't care about God? This really upsets him. God gave him an amazing intellect. I can't help but get angry at times, but I believe God understands.
I'd also been praying for a special encounter with Jesus for quite some time -- to help and comfort us. Recently I heard a wonderful testimony of a woman who had had just that. In fact, she used the same words that I had used in my prayers before I had even heard her -- to have a conversation with Him and to go for a walk with Him. She was miraculously healed from metastatic cancer. It was an amazing testimony and she had the medical records to verify it. Why is it that these things always seem to happen to somebody else? My wife tells me these things happen to "certain people." I tell her that God is not a respecter of persons and that God can do anything. All we want is what we had -- what He had already given us -- without the health issues. I found a text I sent to my son from back in 2019 about a used keyboard for sale online (I find myself reminiscing over past texts, emails, facebook posts, etc...). His response was, "I'm happy with what I've got." That's how I felt before all this happened -- I was extremely happy with what we had as a family, and was extremely happy in my employment. There's an old secular song from the '70s that actually invokes "the Lord," and goes, "I ain't askin' for much. I said Lord take me downtown, I'm just lookin' for..." I'll leave out what he's looking for, but he actually states it like he's praying to God for it, and God clearly states that what he is asking for is sinful. I'm not asking for anything but what God has already given us, and it's not sinful. I'm a utilitarian kind of person and like utility vehicles that are practical and can be used for good things and helping others. I was done with the fancy car thing decades ago -- not for me...learned my lesson quickly. I don't want one nor do I ask for one. I make good money (God had really blessed us financially), but enjoy the simple things in life. My son and I had a wonderful road-trip vacation back in the summer of 2024 with some very precious dad/son heart-to-heart talk time on the long drive, not to mention the wonderful vacation time we had once we got there. That's what I love. I can't even express how much I would want to be there now. We used to meet before school/work for early morning coffee and conversation, and would meet for lunch once a week. At that time he was commuting to a school (he's always lived at home) a few minutes from my workplace. That was an amazing blessing that filled my heart with joy and I always looked forward to his call, telling me he was ready to go. My heart yearns for those precious times now.
Please continue to pray for us in Jesus's name. I keep asking God, who is GOOD, why all this happened after my son fervently prayed such GOOD prayers, rooted in nothing but love for his dad, for so long. There is no good in what has happened.
Thank you so much.
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God has gifted me with amazing things and I want to continue to use these gifts to give away to others, not waste them. I feel they are being wasted. He has given me a passion for what I do, and I would dig into things all the time to go above and beyond what was required, whether at work or on my own time. I have developed things that I don't find in books and wanted to share them freely with others. I had plans to start a YouTube channel in retirement that would specialize in technology and music, and had many topics lined up. I planned to go back into adjunct teaching at a local college part-time as well as spend more time in music with my son -- playing, rehearsing, recording, and writing. God has gifted me musically, and my son even more. He's got amazing gifts, and it is so painful to see this once joyful, talented boy become what he's become. All of that is due to what has happened to me in December. Because of the damage that has been done -- my son's grades/education, his emotional state, the waste of time that has seriously affected my employer due to my 5-month absence dealing with this utter evil, the waste of time going to doctors, the physical toll on my body including my eyesight, cranium, and pancreas, the emotional toll on all three of us, and many more evils -- I have asked God to roll time back and prevent all of this evil. I know it's an outrageous prayer, but I don't know of anything else that would make my son's emotional state and its university situation RIGHT. That's what hurts me the most. What's happening to him is 100% unrighteous. I know people who are men and say they are women, people who cohabitate and are not married, and many other things that are abominations to God, and they are fine. My son sees that kind of thing and even worse at his university. He went there to LEARN, not to live a debauched life like many of his schoolmates do. Why can't he be free to learn like his schoolmates who don't care about God? This really upsets him. God gave him an amazing intellect. I can't help but get angry at times, but I believe God understands.
I'd also been praying for a special encounter with Jesus for quite some time -- to help and comfort us. Recently I heard a wonderful testimony of a woman who had had just that. In fact, she used the same words that I had used in my prayers before I had even heard her -- to have a conversation with Him and to go for a walk with Him. She was miraculously healed from metastatic cancer. It was an amazing testimony and she had the medical records to verify it. Why is it that these things always seem to happen to somebody else? My wife tells me these things happen to "certain people." I tell her that God is not a respecter of persons and that God can do anything. All we want is what we had -- what He had already given us -- without the health issues. I found a text I sent to my son from back in 2019 about a used keyboard for sale online (I find myself reminiscing over past texts, emails, facebook posts, etc...). His response was, "I'm happy with what I've got." That's how I felt before all this happened -- I was extremely happy with what we had as a family, and was extremely happy in my employment. There's an old secular song from the '70s that actually invokes "the Lord," and goes, "I ain't askin' for much. I said Lord take me downtown, I'm just lookin' for..." I'll leave out what he's looking for, but he actually states it like he's praying to God for it, and God clearly states that what he is asking for is sinful. I'm not asking for anything but what God has already given us, and it's not sinful. I'm a utilitarian kind of person and like utility vehicles that are practical and can be used for good things and helping others. I was done with the fancy car thing decades ago -- not for me...learned my lesson quickly. I don't want one nor do I ask for one. I make good money (God had really blessed us financially), but enjoy the simple things in life. My son and I had a wonderful road-trip vacation back in the summer of 2024 with some very precious dad/son heart-to-heart talk time on the long drive, not to mention the wonderful vacation time we had once we got there. That's what I love. I can't even express how much I would want to be there now. We used to meet before school/work for early morning coffee and conversation, and would meet for lunch once a week. At that time he was commuting to a school (he's always lived at home) a few minutes from my workplace. That was an amazing blessing that filled my heart with joy and I always looked forward to his call, telling me he was ready to go. My heart yearns for those precious times now.
Please continue to pray for us in Jesus's name. I keep asking God, who is GOOD, why all this happened after my son fervently prayed such GOOD prayers, rooted in nothing but love for his dad, for so long. There is no good in what has happened.
Thank you so much.
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