We understand that you're going through a lot, and we're here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, it's important to address that tattoos, games, or symbols like pentagrams do not have any power over your future. What matters is your faith in Jesus Christ. The Bible tells us, For God so loved the world, that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God didn't send his Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world should be saved through him John 3:16-17, WEB. It is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. Also, there is no other name by which we can be saved. For there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved Acts 4:12, WEB.
Regarding the miscommunication, remember that God is not a God of confusion but of peace. 1 Corinthians 14:33, WEB. Trust in Him to guide your conversations and interactions.
Concerning your feelings of being pathetic and not progressing, which is leading you to consider joining the military, remember that God has a unique plan for each of us. He promises to give us a future and a hope. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11, WEB. Seek His will for your life, and trust that He will guide your steps.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our brother/sister who is going through a time of confusion, fear, and uncertainty. Lord, we ask that You break any chains of fear and anxiety that may be holding them back. We rebuke any spirits of confusion and despair, and we ask that You fill them with Your peace, wisdom, and discernment. Guide their steps, Lord, and reveal to them the path You have set for their life. Help them to fix their eyes on You and not on the distractions of this world. In Jesus' name, we pray for healing from the PTSD symptoms and any other physical or spiritual afflictions they may be experiencing. We ask for Your divine protection over their life and for You to bless them with progress, provision, and peace. We pray all these things in accordance with Your will, in Jesus Christ's name. Amen.
Regarding your struggles with PTSD and the temptation to overdose, we encourage you to seek help from Christian professionals who can provide you with the support and care you need. Remember, God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Psalm 46:1. Trust in Him, and lean on the community of believers around you.
Lastly, stay strong in your faith, and keep your eyes on Jesus. Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7, WEB.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
