Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have a huge struggle in front of me, and the more I want to ask for help the more afraid I am. I am afraid that if I share my story, my deepest fears and pain, that I will be judged for it. So I don't know who to talk too. I don't even know if the person I talk to will understand, and I feel trapped I want to talk, I want help, but I am scared that if I tell someone how I feel, what's going on, then they will hurt me and not help me. I wish I sometimes someone would just see me, see that there is pain behind this smile, and and sit down and let me tell them how I feel, and they would be able to tell me what I need to hear, but honestly all I want is to be held, and told that everything is going to be okay. I need a hug. I need to feel love, I need to know that someone cares about me. I ask this of God everyday, and no one bats an eye at me, no one breaks a stride, even if there are tears on my face. I just want someone to sit and stay a while with me, and be the friend that no one else would be. Is that too much to ask? I keep waiting for they day when someone sees me by myself and sees that there is something wrong, and would show enough love, to comfort me in my time of need. If Jesus is in people's hearts the why will they not talk to me. Why am I do afraid to tell them that I am hurting and I need a friend to comfort me in the midst of the loneliness and pain? I am waiting on God, and.have been for a while, waiting for this.wonderful friend to show up, and nothing has happened. Did God forget about me? It makes me cry. I just want a friend, a real genuine friend. Please pray that God will send me a friend. I pray this in Jesus name, Amen.

