SinglemomV
Beloved of All
First thank you to all who has and is praying for my family. It is a great comfort..I wanted to give a semi-update.....Austin's blood work was NORMAL!!!Praise God!!!!!!However, am still faced with making a decision on this..I have prayed and I have decided to give him 6 months to grow, before he has to endure anymore uncomfortable tests. I have always told everyone Austin is not my child, he is God's child, he just picked me to help him. God is with Austin every step of the way..No doubt in my mind or soul. However, with Jordan I do not understand why Jordan is choosing to hang out with kids that do not believe in God. Even when I was growing up, the seed of the Lord was planted in me and I never rebuked the Lord during all my trials. This day and time is so different than in the 80's..I just don't understand it..How can people not believe???I don't know the words to say, other than one day you will believe, he'll be in your heart, and I have no not a one doubt that is with me every second of every day.. Austin and myself, would not be here, if it Lord didn't want us here. Yes, these kids are young 17,18 and 19 but I just don't understand how Jordan got in with these kids...I have always told him about the Lord and he knows I am a Christian and I love the Lord, and I do what is right I could not force him to go to church when he should have, none of us could go due to Austin's health issues, so we held "church" at home..My family is a religious family, with my grandfather being a pastor. I have found out in the some of these kids why they don't believe, per say...They were raised in a strict religious family, by having to do this on this day, that on that day, read this for this day, with very strict guidelines. So, 2 of them say, we believe in a higher power, just not sure its God. Lord I pray you give me a mega watt sign on what words you want me to say, what actions you want me to act. I am at a cross roads Dear Heavenly father..Scott's illness and depression has really affected us all, as I don't have all the answers Dear Lord only you do..Show him the answers and guide him to do for himself what he has to do..Help him to to see he can rely on you to guide him..Dear Lord, he is 21 years old, show him your life path.Open his eyes and guide his life. Dear Lord I am trying to start this business and it is very hard to support all these kids, but I have to do what I can when I can due to all these health issues, and constant turmoil it seems, in my home. Lord guide me, direct me, give me patience and subside my anger from all the frustration in my life. I don't know who to quite deal with certain issues that are going on, Heavenly Father Lead the Way.....In Jesus Name I am praying Amen
