Anonymous
Beloved of All
I would like to ask for everyone to pray for me. I am having a very difficult time in life, and I am finding difficulty in coping with the situations before me. The last there days have been worth including this final year of graduate school as a whole.
My fiance/exfiance, recently got a job offer on the east coast after we decided that this is the best option for him. I am in my final year of graduate school and have been applying for job everywhere. I am applying a little early but wanted to get the ball started. I recently got an interview and flew out for the interview on Friday. The entire day was a disaster including me leaving my portfolio an resumes at home. The interview itself went well, but at the end of the interview I was told that they were looking for someone to start now. I am still in school so that doesn't fit where I am yet. I wont be done with school until May. I was very hurt because I spent so much money to travel for this interview.
In addition to this, my fiance/ex-fiance got into a small argument on Saturday night. I thought the argument was minor but he got really upset about something and sent me a text on yesterday after dropping me to the airport to tell me that he is done and ever wants to speak to me again. I am very hurt. We have been together for over 10 years. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. So many things have went wrong for me and I have no one to talk to about how I am feelings so I sit in my room and cry to myself.
Please pray that I find peace and direction from here. I really cared about him and would have done anything for him and I know he cared a lot about me because he would never let me go hungry or without anything that I need. I attempted to contact him several times to say that I am sorry for whatever I have done, but he ignores all of my contact attempts. I have decided to give him his space and stop contacting him . I have realized that I cant make anyone speak to me or have anything to do with me if I dont want to. I just pray that I find peace and dont harm myself. I feel really alone at this point. I feel like a lost sheep that no one cares about.
My fiance/exfiance, recently got a job offer on the east coast after we decided that this is the best option for him. I am in my final year of graduate school and have been applying for job everywhere. I am applying a little early but wanted to get the ball started. I recently got an interview and flew out for the interview on Friday. The entire day was a disaster including me leaving my portfolio an resumes at home. The interview itself went well, but at the end of the interview I was told that they were looking for someone to start now. I am still in school so that doesn't fit where I am yet. I wont be done with school until May. I was very hurt because I spent so much money to travel for this interview.
In addition to this, my fiance/ex-fiance got into a small argument on Saturday night. I thought the argument was minor but he got really upset about something and sent me a text on yesterday after dropping me to the airport to tell me that he is done and ever wants to speak to me again. I am very hurt. We have been together for over 10 years. I don't know what to do with my life anymore. So many things have went wrong for me and I have no one to talk to about how I am feelings so I sit in my room and cry to myself.
Please pray that I find peace and direction from here. I really cared about him and would have done anything for him and I know he cared a lot about me because he would never let me go hungry or without anything that I need. I attempted to contact him several times to say that I am sorry for whatever I have done, but he ignores all of my contact attempts. I have decided to give him his space and stop contacting him . I have realized that I cant make anyone speak to me or have anything to do with me if I dont want to. I just pray that I find peace and dont harm myself. I feel really alone at this point. I feel like a lost sheep that no one cares about.
