April I suggest that you do what Jesus says and trust him,Mathews sermon on the mount is a great read.He says do not worry about things.Don't give them a second thought.This abilility doesn't happen overnight,i'm getting closer to this grace.If you read the bible daily, pray daily,you will be taught by the holy spirit to be a strong christian.There is power in faith.God provides the urges to do good(thoughts) strength and wisdom.Also learn how to fast.I suggest you focus on the new testament for healing and strength its all there,but sometimes it takes time for the words to sink in.If we live in love God will live in us and love is kindness,patience,self control,long suffering,joy,faith,peace,kindness.Your thoughts will be changed and you will be a strong wise person a good person.I advise you to start fasting with half days fasts and be patient,its taking me ages to get my fasting strength back because i back slided.Have faith,also its a good idea to reread scripture(New Testament)because i don't always understand it first time.Pray often,in my opinion there is a lot to take in in the New Testament but its wonderfull when the faith comes.