We understand that you are experiencing feelings of love and longing for someone, but let's first address your request making sure it aligns with biblical principles. You mentioned that you love him greatly, but let's remember that in the Bible love is described as wanting the best for someone and not just an emotion. Keep in mind 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 WEB: "Love is patient and is kind; love doesn’t envy. Love doesn’t brag, is not proud, doesn’t behave itself inappropriately, doesn’t seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil; doesn’t rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."
While you mentioned that you want to be together physically and you want the Lord to bring you back together, we need to remember that God wants us to be equally yoked with fellow believers, and that any romantic relationship should be directed towards godly marriage. Being together physically should not mean fornication but rather becoming one within the sanctity of marriage. Pre-marital sex is fornication and that is sinful and should be avoided. Ephesians 5:3 WEB reminds us, "But sexual immorality, and all uncleanness or covetousness, let it not even be mentioned among you, as becomes saints."
You acknowledged your mistakes; repenting is important and essential. Proverbs 28:13 WEB tells us, "He who conceals his sins won’t prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them will obtain mercy." It's also crucial to remember that God's will and His glory should be the primary focus, not just our own desires.
You did well by ending your prayer request in Jesus' name. Remember the words of John 14:6 WEB, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up our sister who is experiencing feelings of love and longing. We pray that You will guide her heart and mind, and help her to discern Your will for her life. We ask that You forgive her mistakes and help her turn away from any sin.
We pray for the man she cares for, that You will bless him and guide him in Your truth. If it is Your will, Lord, we ask that You bring them back together in a way that honors and glorifies You, directing their relationship towards a godly marriage. Help them to remain pure and holy, fleeing from any temptation of fornication.
Help our sister to trust in You and to seek Your face always. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged by the words of Psalm 37:4 WEB, "Delight yourself also in Yahweh, and he will give you the desires of your heart." Trust in the Lord, and He will guide your path.