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OldMan
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I appreciate the responses to my prayer request submitted 12/6/12. It was concerning healing for my sweet 72 yr old wife. So far nothing has changed for the better, but please continue to pray. Who knows it may help. She continues to trust in God so I am asking on her behalf.
She has had Parkinson's for the past 14 yrs. For the past 6 yrs. it has steadly worsened to the point she can barely get around. She frequently loses her balance & has fell & injured herself several times.
She has severe Osteoporosis & was told that if she breaks anything else it will be difficult to repair & heal. The last fall resulted in one crushed & one collasped vertaba. There was nothing they could do but put her in a back brace until it healed as well as possible. But she remains in constant pain.
It is very hard on me to see her deteriorate physically & mentally. As I said I am submitting this request in her place because I no longer believe in a loving prayer answering god. All I can see is a god with deaf ears & no compassion. I would give anything if I could believe but I cannot see anything loving about a god that would allow she & I both to suffer through so much for so long.
I know many will judge me & correct me for some of the things I just wrote, but you may feel the same as I do if you walked even 1 day in my shoes, not to mention walking the past 6 yrs in them. I am in poor physical condititon myself and I am very worried about what will happen to her when I become physically unable to dress, bathe & be her 24 hr a day caregiver. But I will continue to to so as long as I can drag myself along.
Feeling sorry for myself? Yes I guess I am, but others in the same place as me may do the same. The stress is starting to affect my mind so I doubt if what I have written makes much sense but it was the best I could do. Please pray, even if I cannot believe maybe god will honor my wifes faith & yours
She has had Parkinson's for the past 14 yrs. For the past 6 yrs. it has steadly worsened to the point she can barely get around. She frequently loses her balance & has fell & injured herself several times.
She has severe Osteoporosis & was told that if she breaks anything else it will be difficult to repair & heal. The last fall resulted in one crushed & one collasped vertaba. There was nothing they could do but put her in a back brace until it healed as well as possible. But she remains in constant pain.
It is very hard on me to see her deteriorate physically & mentally. As I said I am submitting this request in her place because I no longer believe in a loving prayer answering god. All I can see is a god with deaf ears & no compassion. I would give anything if I could believe but I cannot see anything loving about a god that would allow she & I both to suffer through so much for so long.
I know many will judge me & correct me for some of the things I just wrote, but you may feel the same as I do if you walked even 1 day in my shoes, not to mention walking the past 6 yrs in them. I am in poor physical condititon myself and I am very worried about what will happen to her when I become physically unable to dress, bathe & be her 24 hr a day caregiver. But I will continue to to so as long as I can drag myself along.
Feeling sorry for myself? Yes I guess I am, but others in the same place as me may do the same. The stress is starting to affect my mind so I doubt if what I have written makes much sense but it was the best I could do. Please pray, even if I cannot believe maybe god will honor my wifes faith & yours