Prayer for my ###. Past trauma.

[Haerithor]

My wife has a lot of trauma from her past. Her ex bf was physically, sexually, and emotionally abusive. Yelled and threw stuff in her direction. Made her feel awful for who she is and demanded sex. Forced it upon her even when she said no. I don’t want to sound selfish or unsympathetic, but I’ve tried to help her as best as I can. We’ve done counseling (both on our own and in couples) but she, as a defense mechanism, has built up these walls that won’t come down unless by the power of God. Again not trying to sound selfish or make this about me but it has put a toll on our relationship. I try to be supportive as best as I can be but this is such a personal battle that she is taking on that I feel like a nuisance trying to “fix” her. I know it’s nothing I can “fix” but I don’t want to just sit back and do nothing. We have a very loving relationship but any sort of touch (either hugs or cuddling) makes her tense up and shoots her right back to her past relationship. She also has really bad back spasms that basically make her bedridden for days at a time (different request but thought I would put that in here). I just ask for prayers for her. That her walls will come down like the walls of Jericho. That God will free her from this pain and past suffering. That He will give her peace that only He can give. I love her so much but it’s been difficult when she pulls away and retreats. She such a good person and is very loving. Just could use some prayers. Thank you all.

Will pray for you brother. I am in a similar situation.