We hear the deep anguish in your heart, and we grieve with you over the suffering and betrayal you have endured. Your cry for justice is one that God Himself hears, for He is a God who sees the afflicted and does not turn away from their pain. Yet we must speak truth in love, for there are things in your words that need biblical clarity and correction, even as we lift you before the throne of grace.
First, let us address the most urgent matter: you speak as though God has abandoned you, that He no longer hears you, and that your service to Him has been in vain. But Scripture declares that this is impossible for those who are truly in Christ. *"Behold, the eye of Yahweh is on those who fear him, on those who hope in his loving kindness; to deliver their soul from death, to keep them alive in famine."* (Psalm 33:18-19). If you are in Christ, He *cannot* abandon you, for *"he who began a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ"* (Philippians 1:6). The feeling of abandonment is real, but feelings are not truth. Even Jesus, in His darkest hour, cried, *"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"* (Matthew 27:46), yet He trusted the Father’s plan. Your pain is valid, but your conclusion that God has turned His back on you is not aligned with His Word.
You also speak of "strong witchcraft attacks" as the source of your suffering. While we do not deny the reality of spiritual warfare (Ephesians 6:12), we must be careful not to attribute to the enemy what may be the sovereign hand of God allowing trials for refinement. Job, a righteous man, suffered greatly—not because of witchcraft, but because God permitted Satan to test him *for His own purposes* (Job 1-2). If you are facing spiritual attacks, the answer is not despair but *resistance through faith*. *"Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Withstand him steadfast in your faith"* (1 Peter 5:8-9). Have you put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6:10-18)? Are you standing firm in prayer, Scripture, and the fellowship of believers? If not, this is where your focus must be—not on the enemy’s power, but on Christ’s victory.
You express bitterness toward God’s people, toward the church, and even toward God Himself for what you perceive as injustice. This is dangerous ground. *"Take heed, brothers, lest perhaps there be in any one of you an evil heart of unbelief, in falling away from the living God; but exhort one another day by day, so long as it is called ‘today’; lest any one of you be hardened by the deceitfulness of sin"* (Hebrews 3:12-13). Bitterness is a root that defiles (Hebrews 12:15). You say, *"If I had put people first, they may not have abandoned me."* But Jesus said, *"If anyone comes to me, and doesn’t disregard his own father, mother, wife, children, brothers, and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he can’t be my disciple"* (Luke 14:26). Putting God first is *never* the cause of abandonment—it is the path to true life. The problem is not that you served God; the problem may be that your service was not rooted in *love for Him alone*, but in an expectation of earthly reward.
You also mention that you have *"no support from God or His people."* We must ask: Have you humbly sought help from your local church? Have you shared your struggles with mature believers who can pray for you, hold you accountable, and provide practical aid? *"Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ"* (Galatians 6:2). If you have been rejected, that is a sin on *their* part—but it does not justify hardening your heart. And if you have not sought help, then you must do so, for isolation is the devil’s playground.
Most concerning is your anger toward God for bringing you into this life. *"I get angry because I didn’t ask to come into this life."* This is a rebellion against the sovereignty of God, who *"forms the spirit of man within him"* (Zechariah 12:1). Job, in his suffering, never cursed God for giving him life—he worshipped (Job 1:20-21). Your life is not an accident; it is a gift, and your suffering is not without purpose. *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future"* (Jeremiah 29:11). Even in discipline, God’s heart is restoration (Hebrews 12:6-11).
Now, let us pray for you with the truth of God’s Word as our foundation:
*"Heavenly Father, we come before You on behalf of Your servant who is broken, weary, and crying out for justice. Lord, You are a God who sees the afflicted and hears the cry of the oppressed. You are not deaf to their pain, nor are You blind to their tears. We ask that You would meet them in this dark hour and remind them that You have not abandoned them—that Your promises are true, and Your love endures forever.
Father, we rebuke the spirit of bitterness, anger, and unbelief that has taken root. Uproot it by Your Spirit and replace it with trust in Your goodness. Remind them that You are sovereign over every trial, and that even what the enemy means for evil, You will use for good (Genesis 50:20). Break the power of any spiritual attacks and surround them with Your angels, for *"the angel of Yahweh encamps around those who fear him, and delivers them"* (Psalm 34:7).
Lord, if there is sin in their heart—unforgiveness, pride, or rebellion—convict them and lead them to repentance. If they have been wronged, give them the grace to forgive as You have forgiven them. If they have isolated themselves, lead them back into the body of Christ, where they can be loved, discipled, and cared for.
Provide for their needs, O Lord. You own the cattle on a thousand hills (Psalm 50:10), and You have promised that You will never leave nor forsake Your children (Hebrews 13:5). Open doors for income, for godly relationships, and for restoration. If they have been falsely accused, vindicate them in Your time. If they have stumbled, restore them in Your mercy.
Most of all, Father, draw them closer to You. Let this trial drive them to their knees, not away from You. Remind them that Your ways are higher than their ways (Isaiah 55:8-9), and that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28). Give them a fresh vision of Your love, a love so great that You did not spare Your own Son but gave Him up for us all (Romans 8:32).
We pray all this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Advocate and High Priest, who intercedes for us even now. Amen."*
Finally, we urge you: **Do not give up.** The fact that you are still crying out to God is evidence that He is still working in you. But you must surrender your anger, your bitterness, and your demand for justice on *your* terms. Trust that God’s justice is perfect, even if it does not come in the way or time you expect. *"Don’t say, ‘I will pay back evil.’ Wait for Yahweh, and he will save you"* (Proverbs 20:22).
If you have not already, we strongly encourage you to seek out a biblical, Spirit-filled church where you can be shepherded, discipled, and cared for. You were not meant to walk this path alone. And if you have never truly surrendered your life to Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior—not just as a servant, but as a *child of God*—then we plead with you to do so now. *"If you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved"* (Romans 10:9). It is only in Christ that we have access to the Father (John 14:6), and it is only in Him that we find true peace, even in suffering.
Stand firm. The battle is not yours, but the Lord’s (2 Chronicles 20:15). He will fight for you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
