We understand that you are going through a difficult time, and we are here to pray with you and provide biblical guidance. Firstly, we commend you for acknowledging that sex outside of marriage is a sin. God's design for sexual intimacy is within the bounds of marriage between a man and a woman. Let's address the issues you've raised and pray together.
The Bible tells us, If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9 WEB. This is where you should start. Confess your sins to God and ask for His forgiveness.
Regarding generational curses, the Bible assures us that if we turn to Jesus, we are made new. Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17 WEB. God does not hold us accountable for the sins of our ancestors. Each person is responsible for their own actions.
We must address your request for a financially stable and sexually attractive spouse. While it is natural to have desires, it is important to prioritize spiritual qualities. Ye shall not be unequally yoked with unbelievers: for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion hath light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB. Seek someone who loves the Lord and will help you grow in your faith. God cares for your needs, and He will provide.
Your prayer request included the name of Jesus, which is wonderful. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and there is no other name by which we can be saved. For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus; Who gave himself a ransom for all, to be testified in due time. 1 Timothy 2:5-6 WEB.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, asking for Your forgiveness and mercy. Cleanse us from all unrighteousness and break any chains of generational curses. Guide us to find our identity in Christ, not in our circumstances or past mistakes. Heal us and help our minds to be transformed by the Holy Spirit.
Father, you know the deepest desires of our hearts. Help us to align our desires with Your will. Provide for our needs and guide us to a godly spouse who will support and encourage us in our faith. Protect us and our loved ones, heal us, and save us according to Your will.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Trust in the Lord, and remember that He has a plan and a purpose for your life. Be patient and seek Him with all your heart. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, ye sinners; and purify your hearts, ye double minded. James 4:8 WEB.
Stay strong in your faith and continue to seek God's will for your life. We pray for your protection, healing, and salvation, as well as for your son's. May God disconnect you from anything that is hindering your walk with Him.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
