Ekdikambano
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray with me, please pray for me. I have been holding onto and avoiding reaching out because I’m so tired of going through this. February of this year I lost my job, but it was my fault due to my lack of effort at work so I take accountability. It took 4 months of looking and coming on here seeking prayer repeatedly to regain employment. 4 months of falling behind on my mortgage, car note, and my credit going down because of it. I have been at my new job for 3 months now, going hard and making sure I don’t slack at anything that is within my control, never late, just going above and beyond. 2 weeks ago I was written up and accused for not doing my job (sending a referral for a patient) (I worked at a clinic) and this stressed me out very much because I never miss that, I had to do my own investigation and found the referral I was accused of, I brought it to my manager’s attention and HR and they refused to correct the write-up and stated there were other things too. As of this past Monday 8/18/25, at the end of my shift HR and management have terminated me; they said I continue to make mistakes. My mortgage payments were placed on hold for 3 months to get me caught up since I just started my job and only been at my job for 3 months. Now that my payments for my mortgage are coming out of “hold status,” this happens all over again? How do I explain this? My car note is very much behind and I have been making payments to get the balance down… but now I’m going through it all over again? I fought hard every day to make sure I gave it my all. I came on here 2 weeks ago after the write-up asking for prayer and stated I felt I was being harassed at work. When I accepted this job I was given 2 job offers, 1 was a clinic and the other was the hospital, I turned down the hospital because it was less pay and late-night hours. Now I’m having to start over and try to get the hospital job back, I’m having to apply for unemployment and not worry that I won’t get denied. I am trying not to worry about how my car note company and mortgage will look at me when I tell them what has happened yet again for the 2nd time almost back to back. I cast my fears and faith onto GOD and I pray daily, not just when I need help. I pray to give thanks as well every day because I don’t want GOD to ever think I’m ungrateful. I’m just tired!!! I can’t continue to worry about if I’m doing anything right or if my coworkers are working against me to get rid of me or not to worry about my bills. I am depressed because I have 2 sons that see what I go through (18 & 23) and they see that I get jobs but then lose them all for different reasons. I am trying to keep my faith and I pray but I feel there is a target on my back that I need to be removed. I am tired!!! GOD sees my efforts, I keep to myself and I don’t bother anyone. I’m just trying to take care of me and my family. Please GOD hear me and help me out of this reoccurring nightmare, PLEASE HEAR ME. Please pray for me and my family. In Jesus name, AMEN.