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hammy1
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My husband and I, Hedra, have argued through our seven months of being married. I have been praying to God to heal my husbands heart. I do not know if God wants wants this marriage to end, or continue but he knows whats best but I am confused because I thought God doesnt like divorce. My husband revealed he is hurt by the things I said and did to him so that is why he is divorcing me. I asked God and my husband for forgiveness and Chris declined. I was faithful when he was talking to women on the internet and trying to meet them for intercourse. I was resentful and said things to hurt him, which angered him. He would threaten me not to anger him or another side of him he couldn't control would come out and when I was walking down stairs to get away from him, he turned off the lights so I could fall down the stairs while I was pregnant. After my beautiful baby boy was born December 1st and passed away December 5th, due to underdeveloped lungs and non-functioning kidneys, my husband filed for divorce. He left me homeless so I returned back to my hometown. I have been praying for him but his heart seems more hardened. I got upset and recounted all the things he did to hurt me and called him and his mother evil for using my son to kick me out. I regret doing that, and regret letting Satan pour all the hurt feelings back in, so now that angered him and pushed him away from me and God even more. I am not sure if he is the man God has for me, but I am starting to feel it is not. Please, I need prayers for my soon to be ex- husband's heart. Please pray he softens his hardened heart and accepts God and me. I pray he realizes I didnt mean to hurt him. I don't know God's will, so pray according to God my marriage is saved, or he sends me a man who is Christian and will love me, if it is God's will. I am soo lost but I know God loves me. I am going back to finish my Master's degree and will take my comprehensive exam in the Fall to make my son in heaven proud. He is my shining light. 
