Dennis_
Servant of All
Hi All,
I've been debating how or wether to post this request for a long time. Looking at how many problems and trials that so many people go through yet they cheerfully preserver continually makes me feel less of a man walking in steed with my God, constantly falling short. That i've just begun to think what I am going through is maybe God's plan for my life, the same situation just seems to hover over my head for such a long time like a dark evil life sucking cloud.
Stemming from the previous year through to last year I really struggled when I had no tuition fees for University, lost my job, was facing deportation and collapsed ending up in hospital due to stress and sever depression for some time. It seemed like all my dreams and hopes had been thrown into the trash and flushed down the toilet. But after sharing with you guys, prayer after prayer by God's grace somehow the University let me have a year off to sort myself out as well as get better. I spent 6 months getting out of the depression and things seemed to have started turning around this year, feeling better and so much hope but after sending numerous applications for a student job most of which I was perfectly qualified for yet receiving rejection after rejection not even as much as an interview, I applied to transfer to a tuition free University in a bordering country as it would be easier for me but I need to save up funds to show them that I can support myself, I am more than qualified but still haven't got a response from the foreign University yet, time seems to be running out (I have till June according to them(local Univ.) after which I will be deported if I don't pay tuition and resume studies) and there are so many things I need to do, it just seems I need a miracle for each one of them, I am trying to teach myself some extra programming and tech skills from the internet to better/widen my job prospects but I can't seem to concentrate this has been going on for a year....this is really crashing me..I've come so far if I fail this would surely crash me for life..I am 24.. but let me let you know in all this time God has provided for me I have not been working despite my best efforts to get a job qualified (As a programmer) or manual but I still have a roof over my head I don't know how and he has provided me with food..this gives me hope that God really wants me to pursue my dream..and sure he wouldn't let me come all this way across the oceans into a foreign land just to crush me.
I believe there could be a spiritual/demonic aspect to this as I received some txt messages from jealous distant relatives involved in it who were cursing me I ignored them, but its likely there is a very heavy spiritual battle going on.
Thank you all for standing with me.
God bless you
I've been debating how or wether to post this request for a long time. Looking at how many problems and trials that so many people go through yet they cheerfully preserver continually makes me feel less of a man walking in steed with my God, constantly falling short. That i've just begun to think what I am going through is maybe God's plan for my life, the same situation just seems to hover over my head for such a long time like a dark evil life sucking cloud.
Stemming from the previous year through to last year I really struggled when I had no tuition fees for University, lost my job, was facing deportation and collapsed ending up in hospital due to stress and sever depression for some time. It seemed like all my dreams and hopes had been thrown into the trash and flushed down the toilet. But after sharing with you guys, prayer after prayer by God's grace somehow the University let me have a year off to sort myself out as well as get better. I spent 6 months getting out of the depression and things seemed to have started turning around this year, feeling better and so much hope but after sending numerous applications for a student job most of which I was perfectly qualified for yet receiving rejection after rejection not even as much as an interview, I applied to transfer to a tuition free University in a bordering country as it would be easier for me but I need to save up funds to show them that I can support myself, I am more than qualified but still haven't got a response from the foreign University yet, time seems to be running out (I have till June according to them(local Univ.) after which I will be deported if I don't pay tuition and resume studies) and there are so many things I need to do, it just seems I need a miracle for each one of them, I am trying to teach myself some extra programming and tech skills from the internet to better/widen my job prospects but I can't seem to concentrate this has been going on for a year....this is really crashing me..I've come so far if I fail this would surely crash me for life..I am 24.. but let me let you know in all this time God has provided for me I have not been working despite my best efforts to get a job qualified (As a programmer) or manual but I still have a roof over my head I don't know how and he has provided me with food..this gives me hope that God really wants me to pursue my dream..and sure he wouldn't let me come all this way across the oceans into a foreign land just to crush me.
I believe there could be a spiritual/demonic aspect to this as I received some txt messages from jealous distant relatives involved in it who were cursing me I ignored them, but its likely there is a very heavy spiritual battle going on.
Thank you all for standing with me.
God bless you
