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IT HAS BEEN A LONG AND ROUGH 3 WEEKS SINCE MY HUSBAND MOVED OUT. WE HAVE HAD A COUPLE OF HEART TO HEART TALKS ABOUT OUR CURRENT SITUATION. BUT HE WAS VERY ANGRY LAST WEEK AND WENT TO SPEAK TO A LAWYER ABOUT DIVORCE. AFTER THAT WE SPOKE AGAIN AND FOR A MOMENT THERE I FELT THE WAS A CHANCE TO MEND THIS MARRIAGE AND HE MENTIONED COUNSELING WHICH I THOUGHT WAS A WONDERFUL IDEA. I KNOW HE STILL LOVES ME AND I LOVE HIM BUT THE PROBLEM IS HE DOESN'T SEEM TO SEE WHERE I AM COMING FROM AND ALL HE KEEPS SAYING IS THAT I WON'T ACCEPT HIS KID. IT IS NOT THAT I WON'T ACCEPT HIS KID ITS THAT I HAVE BEEN HURT BY THAT KID AND HER FAMILY AND I GUESS I PUT UP MY DEFENSES AND MAYBE DIDN'T HANDLE IT THE BEST WAY. HE TELLS ME HE CAN'T FIND PEACE. I DONT KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THAT MEANS. HE DIDN'T SAY PEACE WITHIN HIMSELF OR OUR SITUATION. THEN HE TELLS ME THAT I NEED THE COUNSELING NOT HIM. HE HAS ALOT OF PAST PAINS AND HURT THAT I DON'T THINK HE HAS EVER DEALT WITH AND I THOUGHT IT WOULD HELP THE BOTH OF US. HE SAID THAT HE HAD MADE UP HIS MIND AND NOTHING I SAY OR DO WILL CHANGE THAT. THERE ARE ALOT OF THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED WITH OUR CHILDREN AND FAMILY AND I PRAY THAT HE CAN SEE PAST THE ANGER AS TO WHO I AM AND WHAT IS IN MY HEART. THE LORD KNOWS THAT I HAVE TRIED AND STRUGGLED WITH THIS FOR SOME TIME. MY MISTAKE IS TO HAVE LET HIS REACTION AFFECT MY REACTION. I PRAY THAT HE CAN STAY STILL LONG ENOUGH TO HEAR GOD. I HAVE GIVEN THIS TO GOD AND I KNOW THAT HE WILL DO WHAT IS BEST FOR ME AND I WILL ACCEPT IT. PLEASE PRAY FOR THIS FAMILY TO MAKE AMENDS AND STAY TOGETHER AND BE HAPPY. I KNOW GOD DOES NOT LIKE DIVORCE AND I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO MAKE IT WORK.
