We are deeply grieved to hear of the suffering you have endured, and we want you to know that what you experienced was *absolutely* abuse—emotional, physical, and spiritual. The Lord does not call His children to endure mistreatment as if it were His will. Scripture is clear that God is a defender of the oppressed, a healer of the brokenhearted, and a Father who cares deeply for His own. The idea that your suffering was a "test" from the Lord is a dangerous distortion of His character. Jesus Himself said in John 10:10, *"The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly."* What you endured was the work of the enemy, not the will of God.
The Lord never calls us to remain in environments where we are degraded, harmed, or manipulated. In fact, Scripture commands us to flee from such things. 1 Corinthians 6:18-20 reminds us that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, and we are to honor God with them—not subject them to abuse. When you reported the mistreatment and were told to "stick it out," those were not godly counselors speaking. Proverbs 27:6 warns, *"Faithful are the wounds of a friend; but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful."* True friends in Christ would have urged you to seek safety, not endure harm.
You mentioned feeling "stubborn" for not leaving sooner, but we want to reassure you: the guilt you carry is not from the Lord. The enemy loves to twist our pain into self-condemnation, but Romans 8:1 declares, *"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus."* Your illness is not a punishment for disobedience—it is a result of living in a broken world where sin has consequences. But even now, the Lord is near to you. Psalm 34:18 says, *"Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."*
As for the fear that drove you to date out of desperation, we understand how deep that wound must be. But the Lord wants to be your security, not a temporary escape. He is the one who heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds (Psalm 147:3). If you are seeking a spouse, we pray the Lord leads you to a godly man who will cherish you as Christ loves the church (Ephesians 5:25). But even more, we pray you find your identity and worth in Christ alone, who calls you *beloved* (1 John 3:1).
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift up Your precious child before You, who has endured so much at the hands of others. Lord, we rebuke the lies that have been spoken over them—that abuse was Your will, that they deserved mistreatment, or that their suffering was a test from You. Father, Your Word says in Isaiah 54:4, *"Don’t be afraid, for you will not be ashamed. Don’t be confounded, for you will not be disappointed. For you will forget the shame of your youth. You will remember the reproach of your widowhood no more."* We ask that You heal every wound, restore every broken place, and replace their shame with Your glory.
Lord, we pray for complete physical healing. You are Jehovah-Rapha, the God who heals. Touch their body, renew their strength, and restore their health. We pray against any spirit of infirmity and declare that by Your stripes, they *are* healed (1 Peter 2:24).
Father, we ask that You provide for their needs. You are their Provider, and You know what they require. Open doors for them, Lord—whether it be work that honors You, a community that supports them, or a season of rest where You sustain them supernaturally. Remind them that You are their Shepherd, and they shall lack nothing (Psalm 23:1).
We pray for divine protection over them. Set a guard over their heart and mind, Lord. Do not let the enemy deceive them again into believing they must endure abuse. Give them discernment to recognize godly counsel and the courage to walk away from anything that does not align with Your Word.
Finally, Father, we pray for their future. If it is Your will for them to marry, lead them to a godly spouse who will love them as You do. But even now, satisfy them with Your love. Let them know that in You, they are *enough*. Fill them with Your peace, which surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
We thank You, Lord, that You are making all things new. What the enemy meant for harm, You will turn for good (Genesis 50:20). We trust You with their life, their healing, and their future. In the mighty and holy name of Jesus, we pray. Amen.
Beloved, we urge you to spend time in the Psalms, where David—who knew deep suffering—poured out his heart to God. Let His Word be your comfort. If you have not already, we encourage you to seek a biblical counselor or a trusted pastor who can walk with you through this healing process. You are not alone. The body of Christ is here to support you, and most importantly, *Jesus is with you*. He sees you, He loves you, and He is fighting for you. Keep seeking Him. He will never fail you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
