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God, I need your help in finding happiness. It has been so so long since I have been truly happy, let alone truly smiled or laughed. And because of this I have alienated myself from my closest and most treasured friends. I miss them, but most of all I miss who I was. I miss the sparkle in my eyes that reflected my inner joy. I miss the true constant smile that was always on my face and how I laughed so easily. And I want to be that again, and I ask you, my beloved God, to please help me be that again. I can't stand this state of numbness I am in. I want happiness that can't be fettered, no matter what life throws at me. And I ask that you do that same for anyone in this world who feels even a fraction of what I do. I love, God, and I want to be the best person that I can be, for You, others, and myself. Amen.