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Brenda222
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As alot of people here know about 1 1/2 years ago my ex kicked me out of our home, just said I got to move, then moved another woman and his family in, barring me from coming near our home. He said I wasnt helping with the housenote, even though he was making over 35 an hour. The relatives were invited to move in, even without jobs and he has footed the bill. He moved his ex in. For over 6 mos this man would not hold a conversation with me in our home, come and go as he pleases, stay out all night, talk to other women on the phone in front of me (his ex that is now in my home), tell her he loves her while I sat there, played music on the stereo to tell me its over, told me he doesnt want me, put me down, talk on the phone to the family about how bad I looked and how he is not attracted to me (in front of me), never one phone call to say what time he will be home and if I asked I would get the abusive language I heard at home, threatened me if I didnt leave, gave me the silent treatment for over 6 monts, and I do mean silent. He stayed out all night, never calling me or his child, came home the next day at maybe 2 pm and when I said hello he said he was trying to think of a response for me and never said hello because he said I cant force him to speak.
Now that the ex and the relatives are there he plays good dad spending time with his child, shopping for his child and going to dr. visits, school visits, and wherever else, never speaking to me or even calling me to say anything of our child as if I dont exist. When I was there no one would visit our home, for years me and him lived together no one would even visit our home, they stayed away. Once I moved they started to have parties, get togethers and everyone visits all the time. I used to tell him this was disrespectful, he never listened. Now they have the parties, and everyone comes around and these people are in my home, no jobs, not working and acting as if they are so caring of my child, even though they didnt see her, come visit her or anything for 8 years.
I have stayed in a 1 bedroom apartment for a year with this child when with me, while this child goes home to him with our big home and the relatives and the ex. I have said nothing because I know the Lord said vengence is mine, not me. I have kept silent and just depended on the Lord. Its not fair but I have to follow what the Lord says. When our child is with me he questions what I cook for dinner, and everything, when we were together he never bothered to call to check on the child. I am writing here because he called today asking about my child. I just wanted to scream but I keep following the Lords will. He calls with such a happy attitude, you could tell the smile, even though he was on the phone. I have no job, cant pay rent, dont know how I will pay rent and yet I am barred from coming to my home. I just keep following what the Lord says, vengence is mine, I dont do or say anything. They have everything over there, yet I sit here and cant even pay bills. I know this is not the Lord because how would the Lord allow all of them to prosper and live in my home while I suffer.
Things have been going well so far for me and I have been dependent on the Lord. Sometimes I get discouraged and my faith is tested so I just need prayer to stay on track. Everyone think he is such a great guy, he drinks, abusive and talks to people anyway he wants to. He wont even give me a ride if he sees me walking, and when he drops our child off, he wont even give me a ride with our child, even if he see us walking on the streets, me and our child, he will pass us up because I am there. I just wonder how long I have to suffer while everyone else prospers?
Lord please do not let me keep suffering so long. This woman just moved in my home, while she had nothing to do with us getting the home, and he didnt want her to know about it at the time, he didnt want to be around her, now she sits in my home while I sit in a one bedroom apt I share with this child. Lord please help me to keep my faith and let you do it for me. Lord I dont have bus fare, transportation and walk everywhere in 100 degree weather and hotter. I understand that I have paid for my mistakes and have been forgiven by you but why does everyone else not pay for their wrongs. Lord how can an abusive person sit and prosper, be happy, have everything they want while the people they abuse suffer?
Now that the ex and the relatives are there he plays good dad spending time with his child, shopping for his child and going to dr. visits, school visits, and wherever else, never speaking to me or even calling me to say anything of our child as if I dont exist. When I was there no one would visit our home, for years me and him lived together no one would even visit our home, they stayed away. Once I moved they started to have parties, get togethers and everyone visits all the time. I used to tell him this was disrespectful, he never listened. Now they have the parties, and everyone comes around and these people are in my home, no jobs, not working and acting as if they are so caring of my child, even though they didnt see her, come visit her or anything for 8 years.
I have stayed in a 1 bedroom apartment for a year with this child when with me, while this child goes home to him with our big home and the relatives and the ex. I have said nothing because I know the Lord said vengence is mine, not me. I have kept silent and just depended on the Lord. Its not fair but I have to follow what the Lord says. When our child is with me he questions what I cook for dinner, and everything, when we were together he never bothered to call to check on the child. I am writing here because he called today asking about my child. I just wanted to scream but I keep following the Lords will. He calls with such a happy attitude, you could tell the smile, even though he was on the phone. I have no job, cant pay rent, dont know how I will pay rent and yet I am barred from coming to my home. I just keep following what the Lord says, vengence is mine, I dont do or say anything. They have everything over there, yet I sit here and cant even pay bills. I know this is not the Lord because how would the Lord allow all of them to prosper and live in my home while I suffer.
Things have been going well so far for me and I have been dependent on the Lord. Sometimes I get discouraged and my faith is tested so I just need prayer to stay on track. Everyone think he is such a great guy, he drinks, abusive and talks to people anyway he wants to. He wont even give me a ride if he sees me walking, and when he drops our child off, he wont even give me a ride with our child, even if he see us walking on the streets, me and our child, he will pass us up because I am there. I just wonder how long I have to suffer while everyone else prospers?
Lord please do not let me keep suffering so long. This woman just moved in my home, while she had nothing to do with us getting the home, and he didnt want her to know about it at the time, he didnt want to be around her, now she sits in my home while I sit in a one bedroom apt I share with this child. Lord please help me to keep my faith and let you do it for me. Lord I dont have bus fare, transportation and walk everywhere in 100 degree weather and hotter. I understand that I have paid for my mistakes and have been forgiven by you but why does everyone else not pay for their wrongs. Lord how can an abusive person sit and prosper, be happy, have everything they want while the people they abuse suffer?
