We lift you up in prayer, dear sibling in Christ, and we are deeply grieved to hear of the overwhelming burdens you have carried—burdens so heavy they made you consider ending the life God has so purposefully given you. But we rejoice that you reached out for help, that you are now under care, and that you are still here, for God is not finished with you yet. Your life has meaning, purpose, and value in His eyes, and He has a plan for you, even in the midst of this pain. Let us remind you of His truth: *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."* (Jeremiah 29:11, WEB).
The enemy seeks to isolate you, to make you believe you are unloved, worthless, and abandoned. But these are lies. The truth is that God loves you with an everlasting love, and He has not forgotten you. *"Can a mother forget her nursing child? Can she not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, they may forget, yet I will not forget you! Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands."* (Isaiah 49:15-16, WEB). Even if your earthly mother struggled to show love, your Heavenly Father’s love is perfect, unwavering, and eternal. You are *not* alone, even when it feels that way. Jesus Himself was betrayed, abandoned, and despised by those He loved, yet He trusted the Father’s plan. You, too, can find refuge in Him.
We must also address something critical: your prayer, while heartfelt, initially did not invoke the name of Jesus until the very end. This is not a small matter. There is *no* other name under heaven by which we are saved, and it is *only* through Jesus that we have access to the Father. *"Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'"*(John 14:6, WEB). *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12, WEB). We urge you to always approach the throne of God *in the name of Jesus*, for it is by His blood that we are made righteous and heard.
Now, let us speak truth into the struggles you face. The bitterness, grudges, and broken relationships in your family are not of God. These are strongholds of the enemy, designed to keep you in bondage to pain. But God calls us to forgiveness—*not* because others deserve it, but because *we* need freedom. *"And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone; so that your Father, who is in heaven, may also forgive you your trespasses. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses."* (Mark 11:25-26, WEB). This is hard, we know. But holding onto bitterness only poisons *your* soul. Ask God to help you release these hurts, even if your family does not change. Your obedience to Him will break chains in your life.
As for your brother and the housing situation, we understand the frustration and betrayal you feel. But we must also ask: did you seek God’s wisdom *before* making promises to your roommate? Proverbs warns us, *"Don’t be one of those who strike hands, of those who are collateral for debts. If you don’t have means to pay, why should he take away your bed from under you?"* (Proverbs 22:26-27, WEB). Moving forward, we encourage you to seek God’s guidance *first* in all decisions, especially those that affect others. Ask Him for wisdom, and He will give it generously (James 1:5).
Regarding your job coach, it is good that the situation has improved. But let us remind you: your worth is *not* tied to your performance. You are loved by God *not* because of what you do, but because of who He is. When others are unkind, remember that *"if it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men."* (Romans 12:18, WEB). You cannot control how others treat you, but you *can* control how you respond. Ask God to fill you with His peace and to guard your heart against offense.
Finally, your loneliness is real, and we do not minimize it. But we encourage you to seek godly community. The body of Christ is meant to be a family, and if you do not have one, ask God to lead you to a Bible-believing church where you can find support. *"Let us consider how to provoke one another to love and good works, not abandoning our own assembling together, as the custom of some is, but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as you see the Day approaching."* (Hebrews 10:24-25, WEB).
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus, lifting up this precious child of Yours who is weary, broken, and in desperate need of Your touch. Lord, You see every tear they have cried, every wound they have suffered, and every moment they have felt abandoned. We ask You to wrap them in Your arms of love and remind them that they are *never* alone, for You are with them always.
Father, we rebuke the spirit of suicide that has sought to destroy this life You created. Satan, we command you to flee in the name of Jesus! You have no authority here. Lord, fill every empty place in their heart with Your peace, Your joy, and Your hope. Break the chains of depression, anxiety, and loneliness. Renew their mind with Your truth and guard them against the lies of the enemy.
We pray for reconciliation in their family, but even more, we pray for *their* freedom from bitterness. Help them to forgive, Lord, even as You have forgiven them. Soften the hearts of their family members, and if it is Your will, restore these relationships. But even if it is not, give them the strength to trust You and to find their worth in You alone.
Lord, we ask for Your provision in their living situation. Open doors that no man can shut, and give them wisdom in every decision. Provide for them financially, and help them to be a good steward of what You give.
We pray for their job, that You would give them favor with their job coach and supervisors. Help them to work with excellence, not for the approval of man, but as unto You. Give them patience, grace, and a spirit of humility.
Father, we thank You that they have reached out for help and are receiving counseling and medication. We pray that You would guide their therapist, giving her wisdom to speak Your truth into their life. Heal their mind, body, and spirit, Lord. Restore to them the joy of Your salvation and grant them a future filled with hope.
Most of all, Lord, draw them closer to You. Let them know You as Father, Savior, and Friend. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, that they may walk in victory and not in defeat.
We declare that no weapon formed against them shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). We speak life, peace, and purpose over them. May they rise from this season stronger, wiser, and more dependent on You than ever before.
In the mighty and matchless name of Jesus we pray, Amen.
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Sibling, we urge you to cling to Jesus in this season. Read His Word daily, even if it is just one verse. Let His truth be the lens through which you see your circumstances. You are *not* defined by your mistakes, your family’s treatment of you, or your current struggles. You are defined by Christ’s love for you. Keep fighting. Keep trusting. He is with you. *"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted. He saves those who are crushed in spirit."* (Psalm 34:18, WEB). You are *not* forgotten. You are *loved*. Walk in that truth today.
