Thank you anonymous . I hope You Will have more faith next time to post your real profile name. As You can see we all have some fears. I sometimes beleive that i am in so much distress and various problems only because God wants to glorify Himself through me. I dont have any other explanation. Maybe also so that i will not become proudful about the gifts God gave me. Yes i pray for others and God gives me sometimes really Spirit filled prayers but i myself sometimes feel paralized through attack of the devil on my body, through my Brother, my mother, my collegue, authorities, pupils, depression, gastritis, longing for a husband, my posessed noisy neighbours.... I wish it would be more people who would have more spiritual understanding about what is happening to me including COMPASSION. I suppose i dont have to say that i pray also for myself in many ways. These days its hard to find People with warm understanding heart. There are more beleivers who know everything and teach others what they should do then the ones who would fall on their knees and pray for others. I beleive that i am surrounded with all those my specifique problems so that i would not be so all knowing and proudful like some: brilliant mind, knowing the Word of God and all principles of faith, but cold in heart. Love/,compassion should be number one not knowledge and spiritual superiority. What do we have that God has not given us? I beleive God teaches me how to stay humble inspite od my knowledge and understanding of spiritual things. So, everybody that reads this should ask themselves those questions that i have just mentioned.
I also heard about brothers and sisters that went through fire. Only the ones who went through fire know what i mean by that. God bless You brother/sister, whatever You are. I hope You have your answer.