We are truly sorry to hear about the loss of your mom and the struggles you're facing. It's natural to feel sad and to miss her, especially as you remember the daily interactions and the care she provided. It's also normal to wonder what life would be like if she were still here. However, we must remember that God is in control and His ways are higher than our ways.
Firstly, we want to assure you that God is with you in your sadness. He is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 WEB. It's important to take your grief to Him and find comfort and encouragement in His presence.
We also want to address the feelings of guilt you expressed. It's common to wish you could have done more to save a loved one, but it's important to remember that you are not responsible for her passing. God is the giver and taker of life 1 Samuel 2:6, Job 1:21 WEB, and His sovereignty cannot be overridden. Instead of focusing on what you could have done, remember the good times you had with your mom and cherish those memories.
Regarding your job situation, we encourage you to trust in God's provision. He knows your needs and He will supply them according to His riches in glory Matthew 6:8, 32-33, Philippians 4:19 WEB. Keep praying and seeking His guidance as you look for a job. Remember, God can turn even the most difficult situations into something wonderful. Romans 8:28 WEB And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose.
We also want to acknowledge your mention of Jesus' name in your prayer. It's crucial to remember that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. And in no other is there salvation, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved! Acts 4:12, WEB. If you haven't already, consider inviting Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up our sister who is grieving the loss of her mom. We ask for Your comfort and peace to surround her during this difficult time. Help her to cast all her anxieties on You, knowing that You care for her 1 Peter 5:7 WEB. Guide her as she seeks a new job, and provide for her needs according to Your riches in glory. Turn this nightmare into something wonderful, and help her to trust in Your plan for her life.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to leave you with this encouragement: Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our affliction, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 WEB. God is with you, and He will help you through this difficult time. Keep trusting in Him and His plan for your life.