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Roshonda
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For years I have battled depression and all the things associated with it yet for some time I have found the courage to battle the feelings of little self worth sadness at all times by keeping myself busy so that I could forfill my self and how I percieved my life. Recently I felt I have backlapsed. I used to control my enviroment and all the things negitive now i found myself lowering my standards and allowing things to happen to me. I feel that I am afraid of change and doing somethings to defend myself that might excite others whom always knew that I would fail! I do not find intrest in my two beautiful girls or do I show happiness when they are near me. I am hurt eveen how others talk or look at me. Not as someone kind but as someone to pity upon or pick at because of my kindness. I need prayer because now I am tired of hurting and I am tired of feeling bad about myself or my daughters. It is not fair to them. I have even had thoughts of hurting myself. I Fear it and want it at the same time!!!!!!!!! Your prayer did work last time so please do it again!!!! I need it! My daughters need it!!!!!!!!