Christie, Just begin to thank God for anything you can - no matter how seemingly insignificant. Thank Him for a cool breeze, a bright, sunny day, the various colors you're able to see, enjoying a good meal, hearing your favorite song on the radio. Do this continually everytime the least, little good thing happens. I pray that God will open your eyes to see the supply - not just the demands of life. He has provided everything we need to live an abundant life, filled with love and joy and peace. Yes, there is tribulation, but greater is He that is in us than he that is in the world. Trust Him. He has an awesome plan and purpose for your life - don't allow anyone or anything to make you think otherwise. If you don't have the strength right now - fuel up by only reading or listening to the word of God. Turn off everything else. Find a Christian bookstore or anywhere you can get Christian books. Read your bible - as you find points of interest in the christian books. Play music that glorifies God and watch Christian shows that encourage you in the Lord. Don't give up, don't give in. God is more than able, but you must want Him. He must know that you desire Him. Seek Him with all of your heart. He will turn things around in your favor and on your behalf, but he must be first in your life. God has given each of us or won will in which we may choose life or death. You must change your perspective - choose life. In everyway, in everything choose life. "he thief cometh not, but to for to steal, and to kill, and to desroy: I (Jesus) am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly," (John 10:10)he cares for you and has a wonderful life in store for you. I've been where you are - just put one foot in fromt of the other and follow Him.
