we have in the same condition... almost all the hurts you feel, i felt it too, and maybe the pain in me is more than worst..because i almost dying for my love in my ex bf. where i build all my plans and gave up everything for him.but he just live me just like that after all. you know almost 1 years that i didnt see him, only just in picture only just in my mind his image. but you know, still i cant move on. One day i tried to find him trough internet and check him and i found out that he got another girl anymore. the pain there was thinking that he totally inlove with another woman, while me im in stck with my love in him the promise that we built.
But i must let go. accept the pain accept that maybe his love is not ment for me...my dear,just accept that we are not just lucky for their love as what we have gave to them. i know how difficult your situation right now but just pray. pray that our Lord take all your pains, your hurts and aches. you must offer him to God. i know he listens even in complicated situation.
you know, until now im still thinking of him. but i dont want to keep on pushing him in my life as he's the one who go out in life. i admit that he still coming in my mind every now and then but we can not do anything but let it go. Instead of thinking about the your memories,just share it with your family.
think of people around you. whos people whos having more difficult problem and situation. people who has cancer, lost their family, their love ones, their husband/wife, their children and people who nothing left to them.is it they are having worst problem and pain?
my friend. life must go on even its hard. keep you self pushing away in the world you build for both of you... remember that you live in many years without him and become happy. i know that its not easy. but we must move on.
just pray for it. One day you'll understand why it became like this. One day we'll understand why.
Our Lord will always Listen to you, in all our prayers even millions and billions is praying to him. Just ask and it wil be answered.... just pray and offer it all to him...have faith and trust him even at times that its hard to understand him, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts trough the Holy Spirit that has given to us.