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Brenda222
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I thank everyone for continuous prayer for me. I got in touch with a counselor. She is going to set me up with counseling. It wont be any charge for me. She said that what happened in my life is that I never grieved over the break-up after such a long relationship, she said also what happened is that I needed a support system with this and everything else and that my friends turned their backs on me after I had been there with them as friends for so long. She said my friends should have been there for support when I needed them and that it is so sad the way everyone just turned their backs on me and were not there for support thru my breakup, even though I was there for them. She sat will be referring me to counseling and the good thing is that it will be free of charge because it is thru my school. Thank you Jesus. I need this. She asked me if I would be willing to see a counselor and I said yes. They are going to try to find me a location close to my home because she knows that I have no car. I thank the Lord for this. I really need this. She said it makes it so hard because I have to still deal with my child's father and it is so wrong for him to be treating me this way. Getting counseling is going to help me so much.
I really miss my job and hope the Lord will turn things around so I can go back. Oh I got a phone interview yesterday and I think it went well. It is in the field that I like and Im good at. I applied at this company 2 times in the past and was turned down. The lady called me for a phone interview because I submitted an application online the other day. She said if they want to bring me in for an interview that she will call me next week. Theres no benefits because its part-time but you can work up to 35 hours a week. Its in the field that I like. I just really miss my other job and my friends there. I am getting calls from jobs out of state but the problem with this is that even though I was gonna try to go out of state to work I dont know anyone out of state and would have had to leave my child with daddy. I know this is not good because daddy is already trying to say Im a bad mom. He is trying to act as if he wants custody, he was never there for my child til he got back with his ex and moved his relatives in. Now he acts like he is the model dad, but didnt do it for years when we were together. All his walking around as if I am not this childs mother hurts. When he signed our child up for childcare he put his name as the 1st emergency contact, his mom and sister as the 2nd and 3rd emergency contact, gave #s for all 3 of them, in the mother's name field he left it blank, no moms name, he put my name down as a person who is authorized to pick up the child with no contact #, I put my name in as the mom, this is the kind of dirty mess he does to me. Even when he was not there for my child I never ever did not acknowledge that he was not the dad.
Im still praying that my old job will call me back. I know the Lord can change that and restore it for me. I will still continue to pray for this. I actually have a true friend there that calls me from time to time and prays for me. And they have benefits. Thing is that I am getting calls from out of town, I just dont want to leave my child. I just pray that everything will work out. I am really praying to get back to work. Dear Lord please bless me in this time of need. I need to get a 2 bedroom apartment because I my child needs a room and if daddy does try to get custody I will be able to show I have sufficient living arrangments for my child and that this child does not have to share a room with mommy. I need employment Lord because I want to get a 2 bedroom apartment and be able to show that I take care of this child. Lord this child stays happy with me and wants to be with mommy more, just wants a bedroom and later get a home with mommy. Lord this man is showing my child that it is ok to treat mommy this way and is showing my child that it is ok to do this. Lord please do not let this child take this in and think that people are supposed to be like this. Lord please bless me with employment so I can get a car and take this child back to church so this child can grow up with the knowledge of your words and know the way to treat people. Lord daddy takes care of this child but with this child living in a home where there is so many people and knowing mommy cannot step foot in her own home is not the type of living I want this child to grow up in. Please give me employment and stability so I can raise your child the right way with me and give this child a stable environment to grow up in. Please bless me with employment so I can do for this child. It has been so wrong for daddy to live in our home with another woman and at times have put my child in the bed with him and this woman. This child has been living with daddy and his family and this other woman. This is not the life you want for this child Lord, this is not stability. This is like living in a group home for my child and I dont want my child to grow up in this environment. Lord I have been trying to do your will with this child. I have not had any man around this child and have tried to keep this child safe. Lord this child needs me This child Lord needs to grow up with values, your values. Lord I thank you for these good people praying for me and my child. Lord forgive me for changing jobs because I was going thru so much depression and devastation from a breakup. Lord please make me strong again. Lord please bless me with employment so I can continue to pay my tithes and give back to you what you give to me. I know Lord that with employment I can straighten my life out and my credit out. Lord I have turned the other cheek so much as you asked me to. Lord I have not done anything or said anything to anyone who has done me wrong and turned their backs on me. Lord I just want to have employment so I can raise this child in the environment you desire, take this child back to church, provide for your child and do the things a mom should be doing with her child instead of keeping this child locked in an apartment 24/7 because we cannot afford to go anywhere or do anything. Thank you Jesus in advance for hearing my cries and thank you Jesus for the prayers from this site.
I really miss my job and hope the Lord will turn things around so I can go back. Oh I got a phone interview yesterday and I think it went well. It is in the field that I like and Im good at. I applied at this company 2 times in the past and was turned down. The lady called me for a phone interview because I submitted an application online the other day. She said if they want to bring me in for an interview that she will call me next week. Theres no benefits because its part-time but you can work up to 35 hours a week. Its in the field that I like. I just really miss my other job and my friends there. I am getting calls from jobs out of state but the problem with this is that even though I was gonna try to go out of state to work I dont know anyone out of state and would have had to leave my child with daddy. I know this is not good because daddy is already trying to say Im a bad mom. He is trying to act as if he wants custody, he was never there for my child til he got back with his ex and moved his relatives in. Now he acts like he is the model dad, but didnt do it for years when we were together. All his walking around as if I am not this childs mother hurts. When he signed our child up for childcare he put his name as the 1st emergency contact, his mom and sister as the 2nd and 3rd emergency contact, gave #s for all 3 of them, in the mother's name field he left it blank, no moms name, he put my name down as a person who is authorized to pick up the child with no contact #, I put my name in as the mom, this is the kind of dirty mess he does to me. Even when he was not there for my child I never ever did not acknowledge that he was not the dad.
Im still praying that my old job will call me back. I know the Lord can change that and restore it for me. I will still continue to pray for this. I actually have a true friend there that calls me from time to time and prays for me. And they have benefits. Thing is that I am getting calls from out of town, I just dont want to leave my child. I just pray that everything will work out. I am really praying to get back to work. Dear Lord please bless me in this time of need. I need to get a 2 bedroom apartment because I my child needs a room and if daddy does try to get custody I will be able to show I have sufficient living arrangments for my child and that this child does not have to share a room with mommy. I need employment Lord because I want to get a 2 bedroom apartment and be able to show that I take care of this child. Lord this child stays happy with me and wants to be with mommy more, just wants a bedroom and later get a home with mommy. Lord this man is showing my child that it is ok to treat mommy this way and is showing my child that it is ok to do this. Lord please do not let this child take this in and think that people are supposed to be like this. Lord please bless me with employment so I can get a car and take this child back to church so this child can grow up with the knowledge of your words and know the way to treat people. Lord daddy takes care of this child but with this child living in a home where there is so many people and knowing mommy cannot step foot in her own home is not the type of living I want this child to grow up in. Please give me employment and stability so I can raise your child the right way with me and give this child a stable environment to grow up in. Please bless me with employment so I can do for this child. It has been so wrong for daddy to live in our home with another woman and at times have put my child in the bed with him and this woman. This child has been living with daddy and his family and this other woman. This is not the life you want for this child Lord, this is not stability. This is like living in a group home for my child and I dont want my child to grow up in this environment. Lord I have been trying to do your will with this child. I have not had any man around this child and have tried to keep this child safe. Lord this child needs me This child Lord needs to grow up with values, your values. Lord I thank you for these good people praying for me and my child. Lord forgive me for changing jobs because I was going thru so much depression and devastation from a breakup. Lord please make me strong again. Lord please bless me with employment so I can continue to pay my tithes and give back to you what you give to me. I know Lord that with employment I can straighten my life out and my credit out. Lord I have turned the other cheek so much as you asked me to. Lord I have not done anything or said anything to anyone who has done me wrong and turned their backs on me. Lord I just want to have employment so I can raise this child in the environment you desire, take this child back to church, provide for your child and do the things a mom should be doing with her child instead of keeping this child locked in an apartment 24/7 because we cannot afford to go anywhere or do anything. Thank you Jesus in advance for hearing my cries and thank you Jesus for the prayers from this site.
