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Brenda222
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I have requested prayer here already. I am writing again because I am getting scared. I do have faith in the Lord but I am becoming scared again. I wrote a letter to ask the company I used to work for for my job back. I am praying for the Lord to touch their hearts and they call me back to work. I listened to someone and changed jobs and the new job did not work out. Now I have no job and not enough unemployment insurance to pay my rent. I borrowed my rent last month from my daughter so I am using my unemployment this month to pay her back. Now my rent is due in April and I have no way to pay it. I need prayer. I dont want a handout just my job. I have been put out of 2 apartments before this one and cant lose this one or I will be sleeping in my car again, which the finance company is ready to take, which will have no insurance on it this week if I cant get the money, which is not registered because I cant afford it. I start feeling so suicidal so I request prayer here. The biggest mistake was to change jobs. I ended up losing everything including a way to pay my rent and bills and keep my car. I get scared because I have no way to pay rent which is due April 1st. The Lord brought me out of being homeless and so far Ive been able to pay my rent but have no way of knowing how it will be paid in April. I get suicidal when it gets so close to rent time. I hate myself for changing jobs when I should have stayed there. I dont want to keep living like this wondering daily if I will have rent or bills paid. I am not one of those people who want a handout, I want to work. The mistake I made was to change jobs and I am so afraid. I need the people I wrote the letter to to change their hearts and rehire me. The hours were good for my daughter and to go to school and church. I go to dhurch. I pray daily. I have applied for jobs. I have asked for the Lord to touch their hearts and give me my job back. They have not called me yet. I just feel so suicidal because I do not want to be homeless again. I was sleeping in the car and had no place to stay. I cannot be homeless. I have lost 2 apartments already and cannot get another one. I just want my job back. The Lord blessed me with it and I listened to someone and left it by changing jobs. Please ask the Lord to forgive me for dishonoring the blessing he gave me. I was in an abusive relationship and the Lord blessed me with this job at the time. The ex friend is no longer in my life and brought me down and I lost everything. I need to be able to take care of my daughter and me. I cant live like this. PLEASE PRAY THAT THE LORD WILL TOUCH THEIR HEARTS AND THEY WILL GIVE ME MY JOB BACK. I FEEL SUICIDAL AND CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. I cannot help it. I just need my job back. Please pray that if the Lord gives me my job back that I will honor the blessing and never leave it. Please help. I am afraid that I will either be dead because I cant face this daily. I just need my job. I will honor the Lords gift with no regret.
