kenwise
Disciple of Prayer
Please pray for me and my fiancée. We have been together for almost five years and planned to get married within the next two years however her 20 year old daughter committed suicide on her birthday in October and now my fiancée is constantly feeling grief and guilt. She is an emotional wreck and our relationship has been suffering constantly. I have been there with her the entire time however she said that I can't understand because I didn't lose a child. She even slept with her ex-husband on New Years because she said that he is the only person who truly understands the pain she is feeling. I forgave her but now she is hot and then cold, non-committal about our relationship. I love her very much and vowed to stand by her however she is all over the place and it is becoming increasingly more difficult to keep holding on and moving forward together. Because of her unstable emotional state, it is hard to even determine what she wants to do. Please pray for guidance and direction. Also, today (2/19) is her birthday but she says that she has no reason to celebrate since her baby isn't here. This past weekend she spent the entire time drunk and crying in grief. She even called me on Saturday crying and saying that she doesn't want to be with me anymore because she can't love anyone since her daughter is gone; she even went as far as to say she hates me so much and just want me to go away. However later she called back and apologized but said that she wants me to be happy and she can't do that for me right now... she doesn't care about anything and definitely not a future because her baby is gone. We currently live in two different states (GA and NC) and normally see each other every other weekend. We had originally planned to spend this upcoming weekend for her birthday but again she is all over the place. My friends are saying that I need to just let her go and move on however I truly love this woman and would never leave her especially while she is going through this pain. Please just keep us in prayer... for comfort for her and for strength and direction for me.