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JFSD
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I think people are avoiding me and don't feel like I'm someone they could get close to. I don't think I'm an annoying person but I'm definately unsociable, I'm cold, set in my ways and always have to keep people at a distance. I'd be happy to go through life this way if I didnt think it defied Gods wishes for peoples fellowship and friendship with eachother. I simply don't like most people, I get easily annoyed and suffocated by people, and I'm intolerant of other's insecurity and from past experiences I see friendships as someone using another as a crutch. Nearly all my padt friendships have been me doing all the giving, and getting nothing back. I've been this way for so long now, I've completely forgotton how to talk to people in a way that doesn't deliberately keep them distant or keep the conversation short. Please pray that my entire personality changes for the better, that God makes me a friendly, loveable, relaxed and tolerant person that people want to be around. What God wants from me seems so extremely far away from who I am right now, I know only God can make it happen.