When I started online, I did so because my real life was coming to a close. I had graduated from High School, and after being a sound man for a Church, or three years the Church was falling apart. Some more ups and downs, and I landed a Custodian job at an elementary school. I knew with the bad combination that my social life was over. Only thing I could do was join the internet way of socializing. My first thought was to see if I could make friends or even a girlfriend online and then see where things went from there. 22 years later I am still in my Custodian job. A lot has changed with the people around me, but I keep getting older and getting no where.
My learning disability has been my biggest problem.
Over these years, as I try to research and discover how to fix or manage what is wrong with me, I have run into multiple different theologies and Church views. Enough to make my poor L.D. head spin!
I was satisfied with my Church upbringing. It was simple. You prayed, asking Jesus into your heart, and then you gave Him your life. You read the Bible and prayed. Every Sunday you went to Church, and did what you did there. Your focus is on keeping the faith, and doing the right things, and avoiding sin as much as you can.
As far as serving in the Church, you did that if they had a spot for you. Me with a learning disability the likelihood of there being a spot for me wasn’t likely. But by the time I was old enough to anything like that, my parents were fleeing to a Church that they could hide in. The politics had gotten so bad, that they wanted to just hide.
Now I am trying to figure out what I do to believe. What do I do to follow Jesus. This is not a big salvation kind of problem, because I still believe in Jesus. But the various Church ideas that float around in my head. The theologies, have made my existence a little more painful. Why is it that other people seem to have a clear direction of where they are going with Jesus, and I do not.
My learning disability has been my biggest problem.
Over these years, as I try to research and discover how to fix or manage what is wrong with me, I have run into multiple different theologies and Church views. Enough to make my poor L.D. head spin!
I was satisfied with my Church upbringing. It was simple. You prayed, asking Jesus into your heart, and then you gave Him your life. You read the Bible and prayed. Every Sunday you went to Church, and did what you did there. Your focus is on keeping the faith, and doing the right things, and avoiding sin as much as you can.
As far as serving in the Church, you did that if they had a spot for you. Me with a learning disability the likelihood of there being a spot for me wasn’t likely. But by the time I was old enough to anything like that, my parents were fleeing to a Church that they could hide in. The politics had gotten so bad, that they wanted to just hide.
Now I am trying to figure out what I do to believe. What do I do to follow Jesus. This is not a big salvation kind of problem, because I still believe in Jesus. But the various Church ideas that float around in my head. The theologies, have made my existence a little more painful. Why is it that other people seem to have a clear direction of where they are going with Jesus, and I do not.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.