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Thandeka
Guest
I feel like I'm losing the strength to pray and one thing I know is that I do not wish or want to be separated from the love and connection of the Lord. I feel like I'm not me; I'm usually a jolly person and live everything to God, but lately, I can't let go. I find myself crying; it's like I'm mourning, yes, I'm mourning the loss of my privacy, my home, my house. I'm now renting; life is not easy financially, spiritually. I stay with violent people; I'm also violent now. The yelling, children who don't listen; they want things I don't afford. They get sick; I find myself stealing in order for things to be better. I turn into a person I hate the most. I pray for a house, security, a better-paying job. My elder son is going to high school next year; it costs money that I don't have. I'm suffocating; I need God; I need help; I don't want to die spiritually, physically, or the good side of me to die. I need help. I have a daughter by the name of ###; she is ### years old. I find myself angry, crying because of her. Please pray for her also and all of my children.
