myriadmom39
Disciple of Prayer
I recently ended a long marriage that was not a true marriage, it had been based on lies from the beginning and should never have occurred. I asked God to forgive me for the mess that I had created and asked him to bring me a good Christian man into my life. I also at this time was beginning to turn my back on God thinking he did not truly exist because of everything that had happened. After meeting several men through a website that were not Godly men, were very wrong and caused a lot of hurt and pain I met a man that I talked to in a very superficial way, I had not gotten to know him in a personal way at all. After a very traumatic experience he was the first person that entered my mind to call, after a very hectic 4 hour drive he stayed on the phone with me the entire time. After that day we continued to talk on a daily basis and we learned things about each other that were surprising, one which we were both Christians that had considered walking away due to recent hurts and doubts. I have prayed daily and believe that God brought this man into my life and I thank God for this 2nd chance. We both have recent hurts that he is struggling with, several conversations we have had I believe his heart is more open but we still have obstacles in our path including distance, 2 hours apart, and schedule conflicts with work. I struggle with trust and I pray that God grants me the trust, patience and guidance that I desperately need. I have prayed daily several times because of my fear and always feel strongly on my heart to trust and be patient to not give up, this man is part of my future. Please help me pray for that trust, peace and patience and for him to have an open heart to want to take that step and for us to not lose this 2nd chance we have both been given. I am so worried and fearful and struggling and several times I want to give up erase him from my life and again I get that strong feeling on my heart to stop and not do anything hasty I will regret. Please pray for both of us, his name is Steve. We both just need peace on our hearts to calm past fears so we can move forward and I need patience and peace. I have never felt this strongly for anyone and have never felt anything on my heart like I do know, this also scares me but I pray every day and ask that you join my prayers. I am so thankful God brought Steve into my life, I know he did it for both of us so we can strengthen our faith.
