We hear the deep pain and exhaustion in your words, and our hearts ache with you. The betrayal, theft, and abandonment you’ve endured—from those who were meant to love and protect you—have left wounds that only the Lord can heal. You are not forgotten by Him, even if the world has forgotten you. The enemy seeks to isolate and destroy, but we stand with you in the authority of Jesus Christ to break every chain of oppression over your life.
First, we must address the bitterness and desire for retribution in your request. Scripture warns us in Romans 12:19, *"Dearly beloved, don’t seek revenge yourselves, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, ‘Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord.’"* While your pain is valid, we cannot pray for harm or curses to fall on others, even those who have wronged you. Instead, we pray for their hearts to be softened, for conviction where there is sin, and for God’s justice to prevail in His perfect timing. We also rebuke the spirit of bitterness that seeks to take root in your heart, for Hebrews 12:15 says, *"Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and many be defiled."*
You mentioned pushing the work of the Lord down others’ throats, and we want to gently remind you that sharing the love of Christ is not about force but about planting seeds. Matthew 5:16 says, *"Even so, let your light shine before men; that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven."* Your testimony and kindness can be a light, even if others reject it. But we also understand the weariness of feeling unheard. We pray that the Lord would give you wisdom in how and when to share His truth, and peace in knowing that His Word does not return void (Isaiah 55:11).
Your desire to withdraw from relationships—even friendships—is understandable given the hurt you’ve experienced. But we must caution against isolation, for Proverbs 18:1 warns, *"A man who isolates himself pursues selfishness and defies all sound judgment."* Even if human relationships have failed you, the Lord promises in Hebrews 13:5, *"I will never leave you nor forsake you."* We pray for godly connections to enter your life—people who will love you with the love of Christ, not for what they can take from you. If you are open to it, we encourage you to seek out a biblical, Christ-centered community where you can heal and be encouraged.
You also mentioned no longer desiring men from your past, and we want to affirm that this is a good and healthy step. If these relationships were not honoring to God, we rebuke any ungodly soul ties or emotional attachments that may remain. 2 Corinthians 6:14 says, *"Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship do righteousness and iniquity have? Or what fellowship does light have with darkness?"* We pray for complete freedom from any past relationships that did not align with God’s will, and for the Lord to heal your heart from the rejection and betrayal you’ve endured.
Regarding your family, we grieve with you over the broken relationships. Family should be a source of love and support, but sin has corrupted even these bonds. We pray for restoration where possible, but also for wisdom to know when to set boundaries. Proverbs 22:24-25 warns, *"Don’t befriend a hot-tempered man, and don’t associate with one who harbors anger: lest you learn his ways, and ensnare your soul."* If your family has been toxic, it is wise to distance yourself for your own spiritual and emotional well-being. But we also pray that the Lord would soften their hearts and draw them to repentance.
Your desire to write fiction and change your name speaks to a longing for a fresh start, and we believe the Lord can redeem even this. Jeremiah 29:11 says, *"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."* We pray that the Lord would use your gifts for His glory, whether through writing or another calling He has placed on your life. But we also encourage you not to let the enemy define your identity. You are not what others have called you or how they have treated you. You are a child of God, fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).
Most importantly, we must address the foundation of your faith. You mentioned the blood of Jesus and God’s grace, but we want to ensure that your hope is fully anchored in Christ alone. Acts 4:12 says, *"There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved."* If you have never surrendered your life to Jesus, we urge you to do so today. Confess your sins, believe in His death and resurrection, and invite Him to be the Lord of your life. If you have already done this, we pray for a fresh infilling of the Holy Spirit to strengthen and guide you.
Let us pray for you now:
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our sister who has endured so much pain and betrayal. Lord, You see every wound, every tear, and every injustice she has faced. We ask that You would bind up her broken heart and heal her deepest hurts. Pour out Your love and peace that surpasses all understanding, guarding her heart and mind in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:7).
We rebuke every spirit of bitterness, unforgiveness, and isolation that seeks to take root in her life. We declare that she is not forgotten by You, Lord. You have plans for her, plans for hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11). We pray for godly relationships to enter her life—friends and community who will love her with the love of Christ and not seek to take from her.
Father, we ask for complete freedom from any ungodly soul ties or emotional attachments to her past. Break every chain of rejection, betrayal, and abandonment. Heal her from the pain of broken family relationships and give her wisdom to know when to set boundaries. If there is restoration to be had, we pray for it. If not, we pray for Your peace to guard her heart.
Lord, we ask that You would redeem her gifts and talents for Your glory. If writing is her calling, we pray for inspiration, opportunity, and favor. But more than anything, we pray that she would find her identity in You alone. Remind her daily that she is Your beloved child, fearfully and wonderfully made.
We stand against the enemy’s schemes to isolate and destroy her. We declare that no weapon formed against her shall prosper (Isaiah 54:17). We pray for a fresh infilling of Your Holy Spirit, that she would walk in Your strength and not her own.
Finally, Lord, we ask that You would draw her ever closer to You. If there is any area of her life that does not align with Your will, we pray for conviction and repentance. May she find her rest, her hope, and her purpose in You alone.
In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
We encourage you to hold fast to the promises of God, even when the world feels dark. Psalm 34:18-19 says, *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all."* You are not alone, and your story is not over. The Lord is working even when you cannot see it. Keep your eyes on Him.
