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Jesus, I am praying about a bunch of things. This prayer request is more urgent than usual. First, Jesus Christ, my future spouse keeps saying things like 'its over' and then goes back on these words, making me feel hard to trust them again. This would be likely the fourth or fifth time in a only a few months that they've said these things to me. He is so cold to me, Lord Jesus, when he says these things to me - its like there is no love in his eyes or in his heart.
God, other than him, I don't have anyone. My family has told me on no uncertain terms that they would not open their doors to me if I was on the street again. I don't have any friends who would welcome me into their homes either. I am... pretty socially isolated from everyone. I have a job now - but if I lost J., I have no idea how long I could keep it. I don't take loss easily.
We are seeing a priest to counsel us, but somehow even after our first session where we discussed these things, and him saying he is going to call it quits and walk out on our future marriage, he is still saying them. I am doing my best to hold us together, but I am doing 100% of the emotional and relationship work, - its been a long time since I have felt his affection for me, or his feelings toward me arising of their own accord in love. God, I don't know what to do. I want You to save this marriage, Lord, and I believe in Your miracles, and I do not want to start over again and don't feel I can. I feel like, Jesus Christ, if he leaves me, I will be on the street again and no one will save me from that life.
God, I am praying that You save this marriage if it is Your will. I need You to act, because I am weak.
God, if this man leaves me - reward him for his lack of faith in my faithful and good love with what is the reward for such things. I will not carry guilt on my head because of his lack of love, lack of faith, and lack of fidelity and loyalty. That to me is adultery, and Jesus Christ, I will not carry that sin - if he does it, let it fall on him because I have tried to be a good spouse all this time. I have not withheld my love or my affections. I can only pray now that You are saving us somehow, but every day I watch his love grow colder.
He said to me tonight that he 'was only sparing my feelings' being with me. He later recanted this, and I asked him to apologize which it seemed like he did begrudgingly. I no longer know what is 'true' about his love or lack thereof.
God, this can't be what a fulfilling marriage is supposed to look like, feel like, or be. I am asking for the inheritance of God, where You promised me a ring around my finger, and good clothes, even whatever I need to make my joy full in You. I call on You Jahweh God, in Jesus Christ's name, I approach the throne of grace boldly. Please do not reject me, because I come in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ. I don't know what to do, God. Help me.
Body of Christ, please pray for me. You are the body of the Son of God, and as His members, please pray that Jesus hears me and accomplishes a miracle for me through the Father so that I will be alright. If I have to lose J, and that somehow is God's will which I pray it isn't, please pray that I will still be okay and have a home, food, and the things I need far away from the coldness I have felt here. Christ Jesus, this is Your burden to unloose, this is Your problem to solve, God - I can't help it at all, I cannot change a heart because I did not make that heart.
I trust in You Jesus, and I thank You for hearing me God. You and Your Son Jesus Christ have never failed to answer my prayers. Please let Your will Jahweh, in Jesus Christ's name, act with grace and speed in this case. Amen.
God, other than him, I don't have anyone. My family has told me on no uncertain terms that they would not open their doors to me if I was on the street again. I don't have any friends who would welcome me into their homes either. I am... pretty socially isolated from everyone. I have a job now - but if I lost J., I have no idea how long I could keep it. I don't take loss easily.
We are seeing a priest to counsel us, but somehow even after our first session where we discussed these things, and him saying he is going to call it quits and walk out on our future marriage, he is still saying them. I am doing my best to hold us together, but I am doing 100% of the emotional and relationship work, - its been a long time since I have felt his affection for me, or his feelings toward me arising of their own accord in love. God, I don't know what to do. I want You to save this marriage, Lord, and I believe in Your miracles, and I do not want to start over again and don't feel I can. I feel like, Jesus Christ, if he leaves me, I will be on the street again and no one will save me from that life.
God, I am praying that You save this marriage if it is Your will. I need You to act, because I am weak.
God, if this man leaves me - reward him for his lack of faith in my faithful and good love with what is the reward for such things. I will not carry guilt on my head because of his lack of love, lack of faith, and lack of fidelity and loyalty. That to me is adultery, and Jesus Christ, I will not carry that sin - if he does it, let it fall on him because I have tried to be a good spouse all this time. I have not withheld my love or my affections. I can only pray now that You are saving us somehow, but every day I watch his love grow colder.
He said to me tonight that he 'was only sparing my feelings' being with me. He later recanted this, and I asked him to apologize which it seemed like he did begrudgingly. I no longer know what is 'true' about his love or lack thereof.
God, this can't be what a fulfilling marriage is supposed to look like, feel like, or be. I am asking for the inheritance of God, where You promised me a ring around my finger, and good clothes, even whatever I need to make my joy full in You. I call on You Jahweh God, in Jesus Christ's name, I approach the throne of grace boldly. Please do not reject me, because I come in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ. I don't know what to do, God. Help me.
Body of Christ, please pray for me. You are the body of the Son of God, and as His members, please pray that Jesus hears me and accomplishes a miracle for me through the Father so that I will be alright. If I have to lose J, and that somehow is God's will which I pray it isn't, please pray that I will still be okay and have a home, food, and the things I need far away from the coldness I have felt here. Christ Jesus, this is Your burden to unloose, this is Your problem to solve, God - I can't help it at all, I cannot change a heart because I did not make that heart.
I trust in You Jesus, and I thank You for hearing me God. You and Your Son Jesus Christ have never failed to answer my prayers. Please let Your will Jahweh, in Jesus Christ's name, act with grace and speed in this case. Amen.
