<p>Dear Lord Jesus, I feel like I've failed again ...

[Anonymous]

Dear Lord Jesus, I feel like I've failed again at life. That's the truth. What am I supposed to do for money, God? Will You provide for me what I need right now? Where am I supposed to turn - I don't have anything? I ask for doors to open, in Jesus Christ's name, so that I can have a life worth living. This life I have now is dismal - it is not happy, the stress from having so little is tearing a marriage I wanted to work apart. Must I lose this also, Jesus, or will You be merciful and restore me? I don't know what I am supposed to do, or 'who' I am supposed to be in this world - and the world hates me, and has hated me - and I have had nothing, and it is hard to see anything good ahead of me, Lord.

Why won't You provide for me, God? I ask for the right things, but then I can't find them if You sent them - or maybe altogether You are holding me to a higher measure than I am able to attain to. I am a broken man - anything less than healing and love will doom me. I don't want to lose this marriage, God - but I will go where I am welcome, and I will do whatever You want me to and be with whoever You intend. If I lose this person, the truth is: I lose everything I have right now, and I am almost sure it would entirely break me, and whatever is left would be in a worse state than the man I am now.

I need You to make me into a person that doesn't cause shame for everyone. Why have I been cursed to live a life other people are ashamed of - or why have I been led down such a dark road with so little provisions for me? I have preached, and baptized, and done good works - I have done these in faith as a sinner seeking something better for himself. I have not found any fruit of that work that I've done, - nothing that established me as You promised I would have. Instead, I feel You quaking around me - everything feels uneasy, I am unable to discern anything good or decent ahead of me - and I am starting to feel like although You said You would never forsake me, that You have forsaken me.

A man needs things, God - and it is not right to leave him with nothing - because I am not lower than birds or flowers, and these You have provided for, Jesus. These things You swore in blood to provide me also, - but where is this promise fulfilled that I might lay hold on it and offer praise? I have nothing, but I still praise You for it - and I don't want to live a life in shame forever. I am not Cain, I have not killed, I do not steal, I do not lie hardly at all because I hate lying on the whole, and I am committed to loving You. Why do You treat me this way? I don't understand.

I need money, Lord Jesus - I need employment or something that brings me an income. When have I had this coming in and have not thanked You since I came to You? When do I eat and am not thankful for the food? - Why cause me to have so little when I am able to be thankful for whatever You give me? I give You thanks if You are willing to hear this prayer, God. If You have shut me out entirely, show me a sign, God. If You have cut me out completely, - let me know regarding it. If my love isn't what You want, as imperfect as it is, then show me that - and I will just grow old and die without a purpose. I am helpless to have anything on earth that isn't given from You - what will I inherit that You haven't given beforehand?

Jesus, I just remember all of Your promises - and my life is becoming a testimony to never seeing these things come through instead of a testimony to God's grace, which is the life that I want for myself. I feel like You don't love me, that You don't care, and that I am living this shameful life because You created me for shame, and I will die in it if You don't change my future. In this I'm asking for a miracle. I have asked many times - and I come to You in faith and loyalty to ask for these things. What You give me I have always shared, I have used those things You provide me with for love, and I do not have the will to do evil in my heart. God - a life of shame, however it is that it has happened to me, I ask You to change my future for the better, Almighty One. Eternal One, hear my prayers. Do not leave me without of Your grace - because I am here because You made me, and I owe my life to You. Please God, I am praying for a change today - I am praying for a change in my immediacy - and I am praying that You will reach and rescue me. Amen in Jesus Christ's name.

 

[BrenNMike]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Cccclewis]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

Pray With Us As We Pray: God in Jesus' name, I ask and touch and agree in the Holy Spirit with all those who are praying with me and over my prayer request. God please hear and answer my prayer according to Your perfect will and timing. God You know what is best and Your timing is always perfect. So God teach me how to wait in faith and continue to praise and Thank You for the answer. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus. Thank You for loving me. Thank You for saving me. Thank You that all things (good or bad) will work together for the good of those who love You. I do love You Lord. Amen. ♡♡♡ Romans 8:28: And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. ♡♡♡ This Song Will Minister To You: https://www.prayerrequest.com/blog/183/entry-18002-this-song-will-bless-you/

 

[dcrandjr]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[kbehrent]

Proverbs 18:21New King James Version (NKJV)

21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Your words that you speak are always of life, or death.  Fortunately we do not always reap what our tongues sow or we would all be in worse condition than we are now. But the more we speak death the more that reality sets in.

You say, the world hates you, and has always hated you. You have nothing and have never had nothing.

Oh Dismal Dan you are. Always cursing your life. Sighhhhhh. 

If a farmer plants some seed and then starts saying, Oh now it probably wont rain, I am such a poor farmer, my machinery probably wont work, it will probably hail, worms and pest will eat my crop,  it will probably be too muddy at harvest time to harvest,  the sun will probably not shine enough, the seed was probably bad, my wife will probably leave me, my kids will all go hungry, the car will probably break down, a tornado will probably destroy my  house and barns, I will probably get flooded out, I am such a loser, my neighbors all hate me, the whole world hates me, I hate me, etc. etc. etc.

Does any of that agree with what the Word says?  Or is that something the devil would say? 

If it is something the devil would say, then we are in agreement with him. How can God go against our free will, we are agreeing with the devil. We can pray in earnest for God to deliver us, do all kinds of "good things" to earn His blessings. The Israelites were like that, giving lip service to the Lord, but then going out and worshiping idols and doing whatever was against the Will of God. 

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If the world hates you, so what.  God loves you!!!!  The demonic world uses "your power", the power of "your words", against you. Your imagination, your words, your thoughts, have the power to  change your future.  

In the name of Jesus, I loose the Holy Spirit into your life.  Thank you Jesus.  

 

[hostadmin]

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