Anonymous
Beloved of All
Heavenly Father,
I am thankful for the things you have blessed me with the past summer: a job and getting my license. Even though my job is a minimum wage part-time job, I'm still grateful for it.
I'm just so down, stressed, and angry. I bottle everything up since I don't have a choice not to. I just want more of a change in my life, and the feeling of everything being out of reach doesn't help. Even God feels so out of reach, even though He isn't. I feel like I know what to do to progress in life, but it isn't enough. Saving money, it feels like I'm always saving, but I had to help my mother pay for rent and that ate most of my saved paychecks. I don't have a problem helping out since I live here, too, but I need a car. A car is always on my mind since it's something I need to progress in life. Not to mention help me get away from here when things get to tense.
My brother and I don't get along at all. He does drugs, has stolen money and things from me over the years, doesn't work, and all the things he has done has just boiled over and I can't put up with his presence any longer. I just see him as all the negative things he is and just want him to move out. But that will never happen since he doesn't have a job and supposedly has "no where to go." The prospect of him getting kicked out is very tempting since I share a room with my mother and having the living room to do homework quietly in would be a dream come true.
I just pray for a better life, for things that I need to succeed to not be so out of reach. I need the wisdom to know that God will never turn a blind eye to me and that things will get better, as well as to know that his timing is perfect and not to stress over that. I also pray for my brother that he will kick the drugs and that he will become a better person.
I just want things to start looking up.
In His son's name...
I am thankful for the things you have blessed me with the past summer: a job and getting my license. Even though my job is a minimum wage part-time job, I'm still grateful for it.
I'm just so down, stressed, and angry. I bottle everything up since I don't have a choice not to. I just want more of a change in my life, and the feeling of everything being out of reach doesn't help. Even God feels so out of reach, even though He isn't. I feel like I know what to do to progress in life, but it isn't enough. Saving money, it feels like I'm always saving, but I had to help my mother pay for rent and that ate most of my saved paychecks. I don't have a problem helping out since I live here, too, but I need a car. A car is always on my mind since it's something I need to progress in life. Not to mention help me get away from here when things get to tense.
My brother and I don't get along at all. He does drugs, has stolen money and things from me over the years, doesn't work, and all the things he has done has just boiled over and I can't put up with his presence any longer. I just see him as all the negative things he is and just want him to move out. But that will never happen since he doesn't have a job and supposedly has "no where to go." The prospect of him getting kicked out is very tempting since I share a room with my mother and having the living room to do homework quietly in would be a dream come true.
I just pray for a better life, for things that I need to succeed to not be so out of reach. I need the wisdom to know that God will never turn a blind eye to me and that things will get better, as well as to know that his timing is perfect and not to stress over that. I also pray for my brother that he will kick the drugs and that he will become a better person.
I just want things to start looking up.
In His son's name...
