Once again I am here needing prayer

[bonnieb]

Here I am again. I cannot sleep, I am absolutely sick inside. I know that God is always with me, yet sometimes I need to feel his presence. This is one of those times. I feel very lonely, hurt, and sad. I have to admit I also feel afraid. I know that I am under attack, and I am struggling to stand...I need encouragement desperately, if it weren't for all of you on this website, I wouldn't have anyone to talk too about what is going on with me. Thank you for your prayers. They mean a lot to me.

 

[john]

hi bonnie i can completely relate to your feelings and to what you're goin through and if it weren't for this community i don't know what i wouold have done. My wife and i were separated for 7mos. so there i was left with 3 small kids 6,5,and3. Iwas tired of crying tiredof asking God "where are you?"and any conversation ihad with God was riddled with anger and stopped just short of cussin' Him out.(Father ,forgive me) but i was comforted here and prayed for here and told that my feelings were valid and normal.And thats what i want to tell you that alot of times when God doesn't seemed close or He's kinda quiet iremeber a psalm where David asked God to "guide me with your eyes" you know how we do our children when they come in too noisy or too hurried we just look at the seat next to us without saying a thing and without expression and they just come and sit down and slowly but surely they begin to calm down as we sit there watching T.V. or reading the paper without one exchange of words so maybe God is looking at you right now and with loving eyes is telling you "Bonnie'you know Iam with you and love you with an everlasting love now come over here and calm your spirit lets just sit together." God loves you Bonnie,and so do I.

 

[Harold]

Father, I pray that she will know without a doubt that You are there with her, going through it all right there with her. Lord, I know that You feel our pain and our suffering, and our loneliness. Father, there are many times on this earth, that we can be surrounded by people, even loved ones and without feeling Your presence, it can be the loneliest feeling on earth. Lord, if that is what hell feels like, eternal seperation from You, may we learn from these dry spells in our lives, and come to realize how lonely it will feel for eterntiy without You, and make our hearts right for an eternity with You. Lord, I pray that she feels Your presence again, those arms of love surrounding her, and Your sweet Spirit of comfort. In Jesus' name, Amen.

 

[bonnieb]

Thank you John, and Harold so much for your encouragement and prayers. I appreciate it very much! I have been spending this day just kind of chilling out; resting, and not allowing myself to think about things that have been happening. I have needed a break for a long time...today I decided to take one...God is big enough to handle things without me in the way, and he sure doesn't need any directions from me...

Thanks Guys!