Baswal
Faithful Servant
Oh ADONAI Yeshua, of the royal family of Elohim, where do we really go from this crossroads? You said that you will open a door for me though I have faced many shut doors. I have given my all with job hunting towards finding a new job with a new employer but the going has been tough. I feel there is nothing more I can really do regarding new employment opportunities. I remain stuck at the bottom of my unemployment pit over 13 months within my "season of waiting" and vicious, angry storm if I've ever going to come out of it. I'm still struggling against all the odds thrown at me, still constantly struggling every day to get back on my feet through I have faced many downs laid in my path. I'm still snoring in my sleep, thinking and wondering when my deferred blessings will be bestowed. My own journey itself, throughout my 13 months, has not been easy. My own job search is still ongoing. Few invitation of job interviews, duplicate jobs put out online by other recruiters competing against other candidates represented by the same recruiters or by competitive recruiters, making endless job online applications, getting no response to my CV or my CV doesn't match the criteria of clients. You already see and know there is an awful lot of pickiness going on behind the scenes among many business clients to finding the right person to fill job roles for their businesses. I've even attempted to broaden out my tender examples within a tender examples document to present to business clients so as to allay any concerns raised concerning my own level of experience and to get interest and real momentum. You already know that I have been out of work for 13 months and have been surviving above the water on universal credit and getting weekly family handouts as my reducing overdraft is in such bad shape already. You already knew that I was going to fail with so many previous job interviews but you wanted me to know that for myself. I have questioned whether I am really climbing out of my own pit of unemployment, my own "season of waiting". I still haven't found the exit yet nor can I predict the outcome as I don't know anymore. You are still all knowing and all seeing despite the odds, you already know the answer and have the solution as you know my future but because I persisted for so long with the same questions you refused to provide any further answers because you simply don't like my poor attitude. I so desperately want don't to get back to work after 13 months stuck in the pit of unemployment which gets longer each day, week and month that I remain stuck. I ask you to help me to remain resilient, committed and determined, as this will lead me to achieve my goal or objective. Feel the success of what's to come. All I know is that you are faithful to your promise regardless which job according to your luni-solar calendar and not the Gregorian calendar for timing which you do not acknowledge. The end is near and the beginning of something great. In the name of Ruach Ha'Kodesh. Aman and Aman!!!!
