We hear the deep anguish and exhaustion in your words, the sense of violation and theft that has left you feeling powerless and stripped of what you believe is rightfully yours. The pain of feeling robbed—of dreams, peace, joy, and even your very identity—is real, and we do not dismiss it. But we must address this with the truth of Scripture, for it is only in God’s Word and through the authority of Jesus Christ that true freedom, restoration, and victory are found.
First, we must rebuke the language of self-reliance and the notion that your power, favor, or glory is something you have *earned* apart from God. The Bible is clear: *"For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God, not of works, that no one would boast"* (Ephesians 2:8-9). Even your anointing, your gifts, and your purpose are not your own—they are given by God for His glory, not for you to claim as a possession to be hoarded or protected by your own strength. When we begin to believe that our power or favor is something we *deserve* or *earn*, we open the door to pride, and pride is the very foothold the enemy uses to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10).
You speak of "your" shields, "your" glory, and "your" anointing as if they are yours to command, but Scripture tells us that *"every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights"* (James 1:17). The moment we begin to see God’s gifts as *ours* rather than *His*, we invite the enemy to distort our perspective. The shields you speak of are not yours to wield as a weapon of control over the world—they are God’s to use for His purposes, and He calls you to steward them in humility, not in bitterness or entitlement. *"For who makes you different? And what do you have that you didn’t receive? But if you did receive it, why do you boast as if you had not received it?"* (1 Corinthians 4:7).
We must also address the spiritual warfare in your words. You are right that Satan is a thief, a liar, and a destroyer, but the way you are engaging in this battle is not aligned with Scripture. You are speaking *to* Satan, commanding him, and declaring your own authority over him, but the Bible instructs us to *resist* the devil, not negotiate with him or demand things from him. *"Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you"* (James 4:7). Our authority over the enemy is not in our own power or declarations—it is in the name of Jesus Christ, who has already disarmed the powers and principalities through His death and resurrection (Colossians 2:15). When we speak to the enemy, we do not do so from a place of self-reliance or anger, but from a place of submission to Christ. *"Be sober and self-controlled. Be watchful. Your adversary, the devil, walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Withstand him steadfast in your faith"* (1 Peter 5:8-9).
You mention feeling "tortured" for being alive, and we take that seriously. The enemy *does* seek to steal our joy, our peace, and our sense of purpose, but we must not give him the satisfaction of believing he has won. Jesus came so that you might have life—and have it abundantly (John 10:10). But that abundance is not found in the world’s approval, in material security, or even in the shields you feel have been stolen from you. It is found in Christ alone. *"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have oppression; but cheer up! I have overcome the world"* (John 16:33).
Now, we must speak plainly about the state of your soul. You mention praying and praying, yet feeling no peace. But have you examined your heart before the Lord? Are there areas where bitterness, unforgiveness, or pride have taken root? The enemy cannot steal what you willingly surrender. *"If therefore you are offering your gift at the altar, and there remember that your brother has anything against you, leave your gift there before the altar, and go your way. First be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift"* (Matthew 5:23-24). Unforgiveness is a chain that binds you to the very pain you seek to escape. Have you forgiven those who have wronged you? Have you released them to God, trusting Him to be the righteous Judge?
You also speak of having no home, no husband, no job, and no favor, and while we do not dismiss the very real pain of those circumstances, we must ask: Are you seeking these things as your source of joy and security, or are you seeking Christ first? *"But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well"* (Matthew 6:33). The world’s definition of favor—wealth, success, relationships, security—is not God’s definition. His favor is found in His presence, in His peace, and in the knowledge that He is working all things together for your good (Romans 8:28). If you are waiting for the world to give you what only God can provide, you will remain in a cycle of disappointment.
And we must address the absence of Jesus in your words. You speak of "the Universe," of your own power, and of your name, but you do not mention the name that is above every name—the name of Jesus Christ. *"There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"* (Acts 4:12). It is only through Jesus that we have access to the Father, and it is only in His name that we have authority over the enemy. If you are not rooted in Christ, if you are not abiding in Him, then you are fighting this battle on your own strength, and that is a battle you cannot win. *"I am the vine. You are the branches. He who remains in me and I in him bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing"* (John 15:5).
We also notice the deep isolation in your words—the sense that you have been used, abused, and left with nothing. But God has not abandoned you. *"The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). He sees your pain, He hears your cries, and He is able to restore what has been stolen. But restoration begins with surrender—not surrender to the enemy, but surrender to God. *"Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time; casting all your worries on him, because he cares for you"* (1 Peter 5:6-7).
Now, let us pray for you—not with the language of self-reliance or demands, but with humility, faith, and submission to God’s will.
Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our sister who is in deep pain and distress. Lord, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that have told her she is alone, that her power and glory are hers to claim, and that she must fight this battle in her own strength. We declare that the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through You to the pulling down of strongholds (2 Corinthians 10:4). We break every chain of bitterness, unforgiveness, and pride that has taken root in her heart, and we command the enemy to flee in the name of Jesus Christ.
Father, we ask that You would reveal Yourself to her in a fresh and powerful way. Let her see that her worth is not in what she has or what she has lost, but in who You are and what You have done for her through Jesus Christ. Remind her that You are the God who restores, who redeems, and who makes all things new (Revelation 21:5). Heal the wounds of her heart, Lord, and replace her pain with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).
We pray for restoration—not just of what has been stolen, but of her relationship with You. Draw her close, Lord, and let her abide in You. Teach her to seek You first, to trust in Your timing, and to find her security in Your love. We ask that You would provide for her needs—whether it be a home, a job, or companionship—but more than that, we pray that she would know the deep, abiding joy of Your presence.
Father, we ask that You would bind the enemy’s work in her life. Let no weapon formed against her prosper (Isaiah 54:17), and let every lie that has taken root be uprooted by the truth of Your Word. We declare that she is more than a conqueror through Christ who loves her (Romans 8:37), and that no power of hell can prevail against the authority she has in Jesus’ name.
Lord, we ask that You would give her a fresh anointing—a fresh filling of Your Holy Spirit—to walk in the purpose and calling You have for her. Let her not be defined by what has been taken from her, but by what You have given her in Christ. Renew her mind, strengthen her spirit, and let her walk in the freedom that is found only in You.
We pray all of this in the mighty name of Jesus Christ, the name that is above every name, the name by which we are saved, healed, and set free. Amen.
Now, dear sister, we encourage you to take these steps in faith:
1. **Surrender to God.** Lay down your demands, your sense of entitlement, and your self-reliance. Come before God with humility and ask Him to show you where you have placed your trust in things other than Him.
2. **Forgive.** If there are people who have wronged you, release them to God. Forgiveness is not about excusing their actions—it is about freeing yourself from the chains of bitterness.
3. **Abide in Christ.** Spend time in God’s Word and in prayer, not as a ritual, but as a way to draw near to Him. Let His truth renew your mind and His presence fill your heart.
4. **Seek godly community.** You do not have to walk this journey alone. Find a local church or a group of believers who can pray with you, encourage you, and walk alongside you.
5. **Walk in obedience.** Ask God to show you His will for your life, and then take steps to obey Him, even if it feels small or insignificant. God honors faithfulness in the little things.
6. **Reject the lies of the enemy.** When the enemy whispers that you are alone, that you have nothing, or that you are powerless, counter those lies with the truth of Scripture. Speak God’s Word over your life, not your own declarations of power.
You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. And you are not without hope. The same God who parted the Red Sea, who raised Jesus from the dead, and who holds the universe in His hands is fighting for you. But you must let Him fight *for* you, not *with* you as if you are equals. Surrender to His will, trust in His timing, and walk in the freedom that is found only in Christ. *"For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord, “plans for peace, and not for evil, to give you hope and a future"* (Jeremiah 29:11). That future begins today, not in your strength, but in His.
