We hear the deep pain and bitterness in your heart, and we grieve with you over the brokenness you are experiencing in your marriage, family, and health. The weight of betrayal, neglect, and unmet needs is overwhelming, and we want to lift you up in truth and prayer, speaking life into this darkness. But first, we must address some hard truths with love, for your own sake and for the glory of God.
The hatred and resentment you express toward your husband and sister are understandable given your suffering, but Scripture warns us that bitterness defiles and ensnares (Hebrews 12:15). Jesus said, *"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you"* (Matthew 5:44, WEB). This does not mean you must stay in harm’s way or excuse abuse, but it does mean your heart must be guarded against the poison of unforgiveness. You say you want to forgive and forget, yet your words reveal a heart still bound by anger and a desire for vengeance. *"Beloved, don’t seek revenge yourselves, but give place to God’s wrath. For it is written, 'Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord'"* (Romans 12:19, WEB). Trusting God to judge justly is the only path to true freedom.
You also mention divorce, and we understand the desperation behind that desire. However, Scripture is clear that God hates divorce (Malachi 2:16) because it fractures the covenant He designed to reflect Christ’s love for the Church (Ephesians 5:22-33). That said, God does not call anyone to remain in a marriage where there is unrepentant abuse, fraud, or ongoing sin that endangers you or your son. If your husband is committing fraud, creating debt that harms you, and refusing to repent, you have a biblical right to seek protection and separation (1 Corinthians 7:15). But divorce should only be pursued after earnest prayer, counseling, and an attempt at reconciliation if he is willing to change. *"A wife is not to depart from her husband. But if she does depart, let her remain unmarried, or else be reconciled to her husband. A husband is not to divorce his wife"* (1 Corinthians 7:10-11, WEB). If he is unrepentant, you may need to involve church leadership (Matthew 18:15-17) or legal authorities to protect yourself and your son.
Your pain over your son is heartbreaking. We pray earnestly that God would restore that relationship and grant you the "win" you seek—*if* it aligns with His will. But we must also ask: Is your desire for your son rooted in love for him, or is it tied to your anger toward your husband? Be honest before God. *"Search me, God, and know my heart. Try me, and know my thoughts. See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way"* (Psalm 139:23-24, WEB).
You also mention your health struggles and the abandonment you felt when you were sick. This is a deep wound, and we ache for you. But take care that your suffering does not become an idol or an excuse to harden your heart. Jesus Himself was abandoned, betrayed, and mistreated—yet He responded with forgiveness (Luke 23:34). Your trials are not in vain; God can use them to refine you and draw you closer to Him. *"Consider it all joy, my brothers, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. Let endurance have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing"* (James 1:2-4, WEB).
Finally, we notice you did not invoke the name of Jesus in your prayer. This is not a small matter. *"There is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus"* (1 Timothy 2:5, WEB). *"No one comes to the Father, except through me"* (John 14:6, WEB). If you have not surrendered your life to Christ, repented of your sins, and trusted in His death and resurrection for your salvation, then your prayers are not heard by God in the way a believer’s are. *"The sacrifice of the wicked is an abomination to the Lord, but the prayer of the upright is his delight"* (Proverbs 15:8, WEB). We urge you: Turn to Jesus. Confess your sins—including the hatred and bitterness in your heart—and ask Him to cleanse you and fill you with His love. Only then will you have the strength to forgive, the wisdom to navigate this storm, and the hope of true restoration.
Now, let us pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we lift this precious sister before You, broken and weary, drowning in pain and anger. Lord, she is crying out for relief, for justice, for love—and we ask that You meet her in this darkness. Father, soften her heart toward You first. Draw her to repentance, not just of the sins committed against her, but of the bitterness and hatred that have taken root within her. *"Create in her a clean heart, O God. Renew a right spirit within her"* (Psalm 51:10, WEB). Let her see that vengeance belongs to You, and that You alone can satisfy her deepest needs.
Lord, we pray for her husband. If he has committed fraud, lied, and harmed her, expose his sin and bring him to repentance. *"Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts; and let him return to the Lord, and he will have mercy on him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon"* (Isaiah 55:7, WEB). But if he hardens his heart, Lord, protect her. Give her the wisdom to set godly boundaries, the courage to seek help from Your people, and the strength to walk away if necessary. Surround her with a support system—faithful friends, a biblical church, and wise counselors who will speak truth and love into her life.
Father, we ask for healing—physically, emotionally, and spiritually. *"He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds"* (Psalm 147:3, WEB). Restore her health, Lord, and let her see Your hand in her suffering. Use this trial to draw her closer to You, not to push her toward despair.
We pray for her son, that You would reunite them in a way that glorifies You. Let her love for him be pure and selfless, not tainted by her anger toward his father. Give her patience and wisdom as she navigates this relationship.
Most of all, Lord, we pray that she would surrender her life fully to Jesus Christ. If she has not yet trusted in Him, convict her heart today. Let her see that only in Christ can she find true forgiveness, true love, and true freedom. *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart; and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light"* (Matthew 11:28-30, WEB).
Break the chains of bitterness, Lord. Replace her hatred with Your love, her fear with Your peace, and her despair with Your hope. Let her story be a testimony of Your redemption, not of destruction. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ, our Savior and Redeemer, we pray. Amen.
Sister, we urge you to seek a biblical counselor or pastor who can walk with you through this. You do not have to carry this alone. But remember: Your greatest need is not a divorce, a new support system, or even justice—it is Jesus. Turn to Him. Surrender your pain, your anger, and your future into His hands. He is the only One who can make all things new. *"Behold, I am making all things new"* (Revelation 21:5, WEB). Trust Him.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
