Anonymous
Beloved of All
After months of fasting and praying, I've lost all hope for marriage restoration. Our situation was impossible anyway. The divorce is close to being final, my husband has moved on to another woman and he says he never wants to see or communicate with me again. His family dislikes me and his mother has wanted this divorce for 7 years. Even though my husband committed adultery, looked at online filth continuously and was extremely selfish, I always loved him. He moved out 4 times and always blamed me. I always begged him to come back. Now that I left him, he says he can never forgive me and he's done. He claims that I've caused him too much pain. He says he is now going to church, volunteering, and surrounding himself with good people. But he's had 2 girlfriends and we've only been separated 4 months. He's convinced that God wants him to get a divorce so he can be happy. I'm heartbroken that God didn't answer my prayers and save my husband and marriage. And please don't say God was saving me from my husband. I know He loves my husband more than I ever could. Why didn't he save us and my husband from this sinful, lost life he is living? I've lost so much weight from fasting. I've cried all day and night for months. I'm so weak, and I can't sleep. I'm mentally, physically, and spiritually exhausted. I'm not sure if I'm more heartbroken about this divorce or the fact that God didn't help us. Either way, our marriage is over and my husband says he's at peace with it.