Anonymous
Beloved of All
Though I'm grateful to have a job and ability to pay my bills, I'm beginning to hate coming in every day, being treated differently, and everything always being a problem. I'm ready for my dream job to work in the field I studied and received a degree in, with the hopes that it can sustain me.
Soon I will have a review that will either go well or badly. I was already told ahead of time that my manager didn't feel like I contributed as I should, no matter the burdens bestowed upon me that others don't deal with. My salary and other things are contingent upon a decent review, and I just pray I receive it. And in the chance I don't, that I will be able to regulate emotions and hold on until my next blessing arrives because I am just tired and feel numb knowing I have to go to work every day. I'm already in survival mode and I'm hurtling toward burnout. I just pray God provides me some relief so that I can love and be present instead of scrambling to survive each pitfall. I am grateful for what I have; I just need some balance to feel me again.
Soon I will have a review that will either go well or badly. I was already told ahead of time that my manager didn't feel like I contributed as I should, no matter the burdens bestowed upon me that others don't deal with. My salary and other things are contingent upon a decent review, and I just pray I receive it. And in the chance I don't, that I will be able to regulate emotions and hold on until my next blessing arrives because I am just tired and feel numb knowing I have to go to work every day. I'm already in survival mode and I'm hurtling toward burnout. I just pray God provides me some relief so that I can love and be present instead of scrambling to survive each pitfall. I am grateful for what I have; I just need some balance to feel me again.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have.