Dear 777,
Would like to pray for you by name, but God already knows who you are. When I read your prayer request, I looked to his word to find the verse that may offer encouragement to you, and I felt as though the Lord wanted me to share a word picture with you to help you not be be nervous or fearful.
Imagine you are trapped on one side of a raging river, help is on the other side, if you were to step out off the river bank, to rescue yourself by trying to make it to the other side, your strength would not be enough to make it to the other side, and would be swept away. Yet imagine a strong man, with great strength and ability to carry you across the other side safely, and for you, no worry because the strong person who carries you protected you, wanted to see you safe. God is great, and strong. How strong? the closest I could find in the Bible is verses that tell of God placing the stars in the night sky, and that he knows them by name. God knows everything about you, he knows your past, present and future. Surrender all your cares to him, surrender all your fears, and trust in him. He knows how you are, and what is best for you, trust him, take courage, know he is near. Guard your thoughts, remember to choose which thoughts to subject your thinking towards, dwell on thoughts of good cheer, rebuke and refuse to entertain any thoughts of fear, doubt, meanwhile take care of yourself, and seek medical attention for your immediate health needs, and believe for God's best on your path to healing and peace. Much love to you! Isaiah 40:26
Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.