JohnB
Prayer Warrior
My Son: Elijah Paul Bandalos has attempted suicide one more time. I'm trying to figure how a brilliant chemistry/calculus major can fail at suicide using chemicals the first 3 times and a noose the last time.
It has been tearing me apart, but all of a sudden there's a peace about it. I'm kinda numb as I just watch and pray and attempt to communicate with him.
He as an astronomical IQ and is an Atheist for the most part, I think. He wants nothing of my Christian views or beliefs, so I stopped giving him them like 2 or 3 years ago.
Don't get me wrong, a lot of what's negative in my son is related to me as an alcololic, depressed father his whole life. I never physically abused him once nor have I abused him orally or emotionally intently.
I'm so sad that I'm rather despondent. I guess if a famous preacher's son can committ suicide so can a 62 year old software engineer's son.
I would rather he wouldn't though. He has aspergers real bad. A social disorder. I'm very anti social, but his genes got the worst of it.
My only desire in this life, at this point, is to see my son, Eli happy and at peace. He's never been. He's 21.
Thank you all for your love and prayers. Amen in the great Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth and Bethlehem.
It has been tearing me apart, but all of a sudden there's a peace about it. I'm kinda numb as I just watch and pray and attempt to communicate with him.
He as an astronomical IQ and is an Atheist for the most part, I think. He wants nothing of my Christian views or beliefs, so I stopped giving him them like 2 or 3 years ago.
Don't get me wrong, a lot of what's negative in my son is related to me as an alcololic, depressed father his whole life. I never physically abused him once nor have I abused him orally or emotionally intently.
I'm so sad that I'm rather despondent. I guess if a famous preacher's son can committ suicide so can a 62 year old software engineer's son.
I would rather he wouldn't though. He has aspergers real bad. A social disorder. I'm very anti social, but his genes got the worst of it.
My only desire in this life, at this point, is to see my son, Eli happy and at peace. He's never been. He's 21.
Thank you all for your love and prayers. Amen in the great Name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth and Bethlehem.
