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AMDEC12
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Hi, sorry if this is awfully long, just its complicated.
Please pray that I am granted courage and faith and repentance and submit my life to God finally and have saving faith, because I am just full of cares and anxieties. Initially having decided to start a relationship wit hGod a few months ago, I decided to find somewwhere alone to pray as I was in my camus bedroom with other people nearby, then discovered a pamphlet saying "Every 20 seconds a child dies" so I then panicked that if I didn't pray aloud immediately on the spot without moving, ill people would possibly die because of me delaying my prayers., so I didnt dare move from my bedroom but froze with fear of the non- Christians and atheists and possible derision from them. There were things I felt I had to confess aloud but wasashmaedfor others to hear.
Eventually I got to a stage where I was ready to dosinnersprayer but afterwards everything I did was in the flesh and failing to battle fear so i never had any joy and wasnt saved. Again a few weeks later I did sinners prayer but almost immediately backslid due to fearf of spreading the word to people walking by- no salvation there. So, I have lived an anxious life but I need to get right with God, I just need to be granted FAITH, REPENTANCE AND COURAGE to do so. I am just so frightened of what I may be called to do, e.g. sleep on the streets at night or in the country at night in the freezing cold, especially if I'm in a positin where I'm not sure whether it's a calling from God or just my own mind, thatd be horrible. I'm not denying the need to go through hardships or some persecution, so please pray for me that I do submit and be relieved of bitterness towards all people I hold it against.
Also, please pray for my family to be saved- my brother Nik, my mum Elaine, my dad Vin, my gran Maureen and my entire family. I am holding bitterness towards them for stupid reasons so please pray that I let it go and that they're saved.
Thanks.
Please pray that I am granted courage and faith and repentance and submit my life to God finally and have saving faith, because I am just full of cares and anxieties. Initially having decided to start a relationship wit hGod a few months ago, I decided to find somewwhere alone to pray as I was in my camus bedroom with other people nearby, then discovered a pamphlet saying "Every 20 seconds a child dies" so I then panicked that if I didn't pray aloud immediately on the spot without moving, ill people would possibly die because of me delaying my prayers., so I didnt dare move from my bedroom but froze with fear of the non- Christians and atheists and possible derision from them. There were things I felt I had to confess aloud but wasashmaedfor others to hear.
Eventually I got to a stage where I was ready to dosinnersprayer but afterwards everything I did was in the flesh and failing to battle fear so i never had any joy and wasnt saved. Again a few weeks later I did sinners prayer but almost immediately backslid due to fearf of spreading the word to people walking by- no salvation there. So, I have lived an anxious life but I need to get right with God, I just need to be granted FAITH, REPENTANCE AND COURAGE to do so. I am just so frightened of what I may be called to do, e.g. sleep on the streets at night or in the country at night in the freezing cold, especially if I'm in a positin where I'm not sure whether it's a calling from God or just my own mind, thatd be horrible. I'm not denying the need to go through hardships or some persecution, so please pray for me that I do submit and be relieved of bitterness towards all people I hold it against.
Also, please pray for my family to be saved- my brother Nik, my mum Elaine, my dad Vin, my gran Maureen and my entire family. I am holding bitterness towards them for stupid reasons so please pray that I let it go and that they're saved.
Thanks.
