My Medicine Makes Me Crazy........

I have to take shots for my Rheumatoid Arthritis , took pretty much everyone they created the others just stop working or made me severely sick had to stop.
Now the Humira is making me severely depress, here is a letter I wrote to God today. Keep in mind Itook the shot only a few hours ago

Okay father, my head hurts, my heart hurts and I feel like crying. When will I have evidence that something will go alright in my life. I am sorry for seeming bitter, but Yahweh I have nothing to show for all my trials. Every day I pretend to be okay, but you know it is just a façade I wish I was no longer on this planet but in heaven with you. Who is friendless?? Homeless people have friends………. So honestly I am mad, I am mad because I feel like you do not care, I cannot lie to my creator but please give me some form of hope. And do I have a helpmate? Yes or No. Please tell me. Why do I have to be where I hate? Can you please pity me even though I am worth nothing I am tired of being sad, please lead me to my helpmeet today. Or let this desire permanently disappear, I want to be done forever……………….. I am done hurting, praying that you will help me.
In Jesus name


I know Iwent through more than the average person, but I still feel okay. Today I am feeling like I am a zero please pray thanks.

 

[Saraha]

Hey sister, I am praying for you. God bless

 

[kbehrent]

Every day I pretend to be okay


Instead of pretending you are okay, believe and speak aloud that you are okay and come into agreement with what the Bible says, which is that "by His stripes you were healed. 1 Peter 2:24" Your own faith, in agreement with God's Word/Will shall cause your healing to manifest.
Bless everything you eat, drink, breathe, or put into or onto your body. Bless the place you live and everything in it.And thank Jesus many times for your healing and the many blessings of the Father.

 

[mexflwr]

I pray for you and all that you are going through today. I am sorry that you may think God is not with you but I know he is because God loves you.

Romans 8:37-39 - No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

I suggest that you get a good support system in your local Church. For me, I have studied that when things are good evil wants to attack you. Therefore it is important that you can call on your Pastor or your prayer group because they will pray with you and for you. I have done so many things to myself because I want to be loved but it never worked for me because I WANTED to Control things here on Earth. However, I have learned to surrender my worries to God and this has changed my way of thinking. God is in control of my life and yours but the key is to ask and he will provide a way for you.

John 14:13-14

"Whatever you ask in My name, that will I do, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. "If you ask Me anything in My name, I will do it.

You have to believe in yourself that God is there for you. I pray for you today and that you may see the light in the darkness you are feeling.

God bless