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My heart is breaking in a million pieces. As many of you know, my dear friend Jim has Lewy Body dementia. Is getting worse and worse. Yesterday he made me lose my appointment with my therapist at VA because at very last minute before we could leave here and still make it to VA on time, he refused to drive me. I called the therapist. She made me other appointment tomorrow. I think I should take the bus in case Jim flips on me again, but right now he is insisting on driving me. So first part of this prayer is that things just work out tomorrow. I can't afford to miss this appointment. I was thinking maybe he could just take bus with me to keep me company. So please pray about that. But biggest problem is I just do not know how to handle this situation -- I let him come back up here and sleep on my couch last night because I don't want him left alone. I gave him his trazodone. He started mellowing out and purring like a kitten. Then he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me good night. Then he asked me how my brother was. I don't have a brother. I just do not know what to do. I honestly don't. I am afraid if I go back to his kids, they are going to take path of least resistance and put him in a regular home. He may not have to do that yet. They have outpatient programs for people like Jim, social workers and the like, and they also have good assisted living places. I know I can not do any more, and I know I do not belong with medical power of attorney or anything. Pray I do the right thing by this man. Pray I do it without going stark, raving mad. Your sister in Christ, Lamb.
